Hello everyone ... my last update on this website has been err.. long long time ago.
I just wanna drop by and say Hi to old friends. And here is a free event you guys can attend in the park. Bangkok Theatre Festival 2010. Suan Santichaiprakarn Phra Athit Rd. Banglampoo.
This year we have only 2 weekend for the festival 6-7 Nov. And one more next week. 13-14 Nov.
This picture is from a play called "River of Death" by 8x8 theatre group. They went to Egypt to attend theatre festival there
08 April 2009 03.00am
I had my last cigarette.
Same day in the afternoon, I had a meeting with my adviser.
We talked about my motivation of quitting and how we gonna get there.
Martin Lever ( aka Marty) my adviser, he was a heavy smoker before
he smoked for 20 years ( mine is 11years).
Now he quit totally, he is also a vegetarian and he exercises regularly.
Back to my motivation.
Well, it has been years that my family keeps yelling, begging that I quit.
They don't like it obvi
I’m a *** hag… undeniable fact.
So… in my free time… in a stress out day,
I watch lots of youtube vid.
This is my favorite one… cause no matter how hard it is out there.
It always makes me smile.
After a long period of works and works and works
Try to find a place for myself in this big big world
It has been … a decade now…
I feel old and exhausted…
Where am I in this world?
Have I grow up…?
What am I doing now that actually difference from the past 10 years?
I’m still going to the theatre…
I’m still working with very same troop.
I even have new job in fields other than theatre.
I have many new friends, load of new acquaintances.
Some of you may feel quite curious of how I could possibly put up with Zuesbheld
And it is for a year now???
I actually feel grateful that he put up with me tho.
Fact that I'm such a strange (or not) person.
Personalities and behaviors it is quite obvious that
"I"m a gay man trapped in a woman's body"
Surrounded by gay men at all time, work with them, play with them,
and take many of them as my best friends.
Watch lots of gay movies, listen to a song simply just because the singer is
One night I walked on crowded street
Empty heart was rather bitter sweet
Out of desperation I said "We shall meet"
You came and greet right away.
Just sit there and keep talking
All I need then was just a human being in front of me
Hold my hands will be a plus
Cause I've not touch a living person for long time
So you did, sit talk and hold my hands.
You keep doing so for a year now.
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY "zeusbheld"
you may say i'm a dreamer... but i'm not the only one
I have been writing too many looooongggggg journals.
not even sure if anybody reading it.
here come the easy way of making an entry
cut and past something and hoping some might like it.
David Archuleta may not win the American Idol competition,
he is certainly win many people's heart
April 2008, I had a chance to work as hotel’s frontdesk.
I had never work routine for a long time, this is the second one in my entire life.
Needed money, of course, got bills to pay, life of one own to be responsible.
I took the job thinking, “Well… it shouldn’t be too bad cause at least hotel business
is a service business and I’m in this planet to make people happy, am I?”
9 hours a day, 6 days a week. I have learned a lot from this experience.
Check in, check out and c
Thai boxing is a well known and popular sport. Long before football or soccer culture arrive in this country, many men will stay in front of TV waiting to see the match every weekend. So many boxers in the past and present time that we (as Thai people) can be proud of, some of them turn themselves to be actors or even singers.
At November 2007 and February 2008, I had a chance to work as “fixer” for 2 photographers. This started from 2 famous photographers from National Geographi
I have been gone from the cyber world for a very long time.
Those who has me on their messenger list knew this well, I think. I'm back with stories to tell. Since it is February, I shall start with the topic about love. Love of the land. Last October, I spent 2 weeks down south of Thailand , in Narathiwat.
One of those 3 war zone provinces, (you might knew already) Regarding from the last journal entry that I posted o
When I first joined this website, my status set to be engaged
After while, things changed… in a good way perhaps,
My status set to be Single and Not looking.
And I have been thinking, maybe I should change to be Single and looking.
But what does it takes?
Looking for a relationship on-line in the era of globalization,
One must believe that it is possible.
Honestly I don’t.
How can you fall for someone you haven’t met?
How do you know, it isn’t your own imaginatio
My dear Dr. Sassy
One who should be name Dr. Adobe
What a beautiful morning
I hope this bring you joy
Hope the noon with bring you luck
and the evening bring, of course, people you love.
My dear sweet Sassy
She was born in the cusp of water and fire
Which actually make her arrogant and also kind
Special Sassy, a gorgeous woman with a beautiful mind
I will always be you friend
the road has bring our life cross and I’d make sure it won’t end
I had a magazine invited me to gave them an interview.
As time goes, I wait and wait to see its publish.
The interviewer sent me a draft to prove the story before it print.
I did prove and re-write some informations to make it correct.
Eventually the magazine is out on books stand.
Words are twisted awfully.
From the point where “She had quite an experiences, you can learn from her”
to “Most of decisions this woman made in life were wrong, don't ever do that”
I feel betra
If anyone will ask me how do I feel today.
This song can explain at best.
Wish I could say something more but I'm bump up.
Please don't ask why...
Hope you guys like the lyrics.
"Tears And Rain"
How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.
I guess it's time I run far, far away; find c
Wake up in the late afternoon (as usual)
Turn on computer and make coffee (as ususal)
Log on to TF and read people's journal (as usual)
Click on My dashboard to see which friend is on-line (as usual)
I see list of people who added me on thier favorite (Unusual!)
I see also list of people who sent me virtual kisses (Unusual!)
For few second I thought "Hmm... internet is unstable lately,maybe it's a server mistake"
And I look at my name... there I see "Premium"
Whoever you are ...
It was late afternoon, as I'm trying to wake myself up
(yeah I went to sleep at sunrise)
I heard my phone rings, it was one of my best friend,
he living in the same building with me at the difference floor.
“Jang… come out at the balcony!!! now!!”
As I'm not fully awake and I'm still in my pajamas so I yelled back
“Why!!!? It's raining!!! you just want me to get myself wet?”
“Just come out, will ya?”
I opened the door eventually
Tony Blair annonced that he will step down from Britain's Prime misnister this evening.
I don't have much information enough to give opinion about this.
(which of course I will do research about it)But I'd like to know you guys opinion about this.
What do you think about this?How it will effect us or direction of the world?Or it wouldn't change anything because he will be replace with someone from the same party which actually means they will continue with tha same policy. I'd like to hear
“Nicolas Sarkozy elected president of France ”
It's on the headline of every newspaper and every news channel. I don't have to be relative of Nostradamus but Sarko's victory is so predictable.
Even tho, this make me kinda sad. Look back… when Josh Bush won and become the president for the second time after what he did in Iraq .
I was very mad with American people.
Why? I kept asking myself again and again. And I thought of the video that Osama laun
Last night I watched a documentary on Nation Geographic channel.
It was about Taiwan nowadays.
Freedom of expression arts, a famous choreographer even said if he goes stage nude,
it won't be mentioned on the newspaper or anything.
Artists are free to express themselves and pull their best to present the works. If you wanna be notice you gotta be really good on what you do.
Documentary also talked about renaissance of tea ceremony and pride of Chinese cultures.
Make me think a lot a