i still remember last logged in here and start blabbering for near and hour but i'd got cut off by the time logging in.
there was the moment and the feeling of pouring out my thought how i disgust and hate my boss..lol that's conflict since she was my instructor before, but she never done it well in her duty. only she try to find ways too suck the money out to her pocket.
hopefully next time i'd post it. i dont know who will come t read but hope it's worth.
Feel free to drop me your comment.. i'm trying to get it the bestthis one? ... no, not yet. check it out Glittering soft light reflexes under the full moon nightFly by the cool gentle wind passed on our skinThere is no fight, win nor looseThe passion has been dig up from the roots Left me with no key to redeem, But the only severe sin Tonight, we are freed, there are just you and meW e follow the secret signs on the pathwayto the unknown garden, no one dares to say We hold hands, w
I normally write some kind of poem when i have such feeling toward to things, the phenomena or whatever that have made me to be down..or inspired me.This one, after i finished writing it i've found it's more like lyrics rather than poem.Tell me what do you think about it?For sure it's definitely gothic style and mind haunted with creepy feeling one i have ever written. Moonstone Garden Glittering soft light reflexing under the full moon.Cool gentle wind passes only on skin .There is no l
found no inspiration lately to my study. it's going worse now by my interest. nothing can be created out of my head, nothing can catch my interest... hum.. the trouble comes again... will i pass my last f**king stupid course for my master?
if i can't do the best. there's no point to do "just whatever to make me pass". that's not the idea. besides, even that i can't think of anything.
wtf... is going on with me..longer i learn in institution, higher level of education i get i feel like
Gees..
my life is f**king boring for these days. Except for a big party Culture One on sat. night . Really miss it, as the awesome party one i ever been here. For other things, pieces of crab with school stuff that seems like ever ended to work on and more serius and more work come as i'm getting close to the end of semester.
you know, my heart is not there anymore(i'm thinking about start to work again), but trying so hard to get my best out of it. otherwise, what's worht to do so if you
hummm. i haven't update my journal for a while.i have nothing much to say though as my life goes on pretty the sane everyday with slightly same tasks and problems..those are with me still.sometimes i feel like this life is unbearable to live, to torture and being tortured. i don't like that.. normally this time of the year, every year chills me down to think of the family party and celebration everywhere. even i'm bhuddist, why not.. i feel good about it. family reunite once again..everyone sing
You thought you were smartyou played with my heart
then you thoughtthen you paused you asked for break upit tore me down
with all your hundreds of reasons but you wanted me to be your friendso i would beyou needed a break you needed timei gave to you then you asked me backto be your special friend,that was what you said I was hardly possibly take that was hurt, what i've suppose to do,i can't be like before,but i always think of you that's why i was backi started it over again and took it
You felt like I've stepped on your nerve,but you've stepped on my nerve, too.You can't say it wrong because you're older and you rule.All say right, but if it's not right. It can't be right.That's truth we can't avoid.I'm sorry if I say it frankly, but true........
God, Who's with you in heaven?Saints and angels..your blessed children or redeemed spirits.Can a ***** stay with you there?sometimes, i walk on the white line with the shadow,sometimes, i'm the darkness with the light shine outsometimes, i'm in between good or bad;grayI can't be both that good or absolute bad.I'm juz a ***** who has got little bit of everything I don't know where I should go or how I would be..Too good to be in hell, but too bad to stay in heaven.To be in the middle is torturi
Juz broke up - after we'd been together for little while....... I was straight, I knew what I want, I put myself into the relation with care.. So what da hell is going on, why i'm always the one who is hurt. anyone tell me?............................................................................................................................................... An angels smile is what you sell
You promise me heaven, then put me through hell
Chains of love got a hold on me
When passi
Before, i was in confusing stage....... tried so hard to clear it....... Now, it's little better.... in worse situation of falling down.. there were things to save me and lift me up...thx for those "friends-Alex, Tarn Noi, afsNZ#36 to Art's wedding, my boy- Tal, my sis-nikki with my whole heart to help and give me support and courage. Then i can get little breathe here. you don't know how much you guys have done me. -You may think it's juz little thing but it's big enough to mean something to me
Well, it's been long time i haven't been here and done anything.Yeah, i know some of my journals sucks. Sorry guys. I can't help it. I'm not a novel writer and I'm not born original native English speaker. Just someone tries to use English in daily life, not showing off but to express the feels which in Thai can't do.Whatever.... There're so many problems I'm facing. Gosh, I'm so tired, so sick of them. People, people and people that starts all the problems. I know there're so many people out t
Hey guys, have you ever read something which it doesn't mean what you read?I quite often read something when i walk pass, when BTS train passes buildings, bus passes shops and restaurants, you know what, i read them miss a word or alphabets that changes the meaning totally. That's caught my amusement for what i read through. And the latest, I read a message from a TFer . My poor brain perceived it reverses !!!!! I've already sent back replies...oops!If you never been like this before you should
Lately, it rains often. Making BKK's weather not too hot as always in all year round. Lucky for me that i don't have to travel far from house....hee hee ...I think as some says I need meditation or yoga to get me feel better, that i may be need it for a short escape and heal my soul. Now i feel like i've said enough of some sh*tty things, whinning about my damn life. What went wrong and right. (but i'm still blabing in TF ha ha)
In rainny days like these days make me feel cooler down of burnin
I come up with crazy idea that's if i could get a tattoo or some tattoos what they will be like and why? It's fun to think of it.I think of my back will get a big japanese style phoenix with sakura tree on as the back ground and vines on my right arm crawls up to my left shoulder with a small gothic cross on my neck will be so cool. In fact, i can't because i don't want to throw my money away like that, after several years has passed, the flash and skin will goes down along the gravity. Yeah
Last time i was trying to post other journal but my poor internet speed didn't coorporate..... :(Lately, there were so many depressing situations pushed me down, as I'd tried to against it. See now it's not really my problem, eventhough, I may be the cause. Doesn't really matter for the cause but how to treat it and untide the knots, don't you think so. Care for others is good, but don't let it over you, as i was nearly gotten mad by some jerks round the house. Right now I feel better to ignore
Last weekends i went to Cha-Am with my family. On Satureday, we left in the morning. It was a clear day, sun shines brightly. You didn't have to guess how nice it was on the beach. We reahed the privated safehouse at PukTien beach which was owned by a customer of my aunty's port. Quite sleepy in the morning cos the night before i was up til nearly dawn. But when we arrived there. I was surprised by the size of the house, it was big and cozy. First activity we did after we put all staff in room
You may think i see myself in big trouble, yup, sometimes when i couldn't find the solution. Have you ever been in this circumstance? I guess you do. After I've found myself collapse and desperate in such conditions which some if you can think it's stupid, ah yes it was. But once you failed deeply, it was hard to get up and recovery to wound. What you gonna do?
You know what my perception, my thought has changed. All colors i see getting dimmer and shaded. And then what's come up in my mind ab
Sometimes life's good to us sometimes it turns bad. So, what's wrong with it? Yeah, all the living try to struggle here.What have I done wrong? i can't figure it out, hope someday i will and i'll fix itSometimes we bet on our lives, like toss a coin, heads - you live, tails you die. That's simply. The question is whether you are ready to accept and take it. Right?
After alomst a year i left mt profile in here and then have come back....Oh god my profile is SUX!!!!! when i read my profile how bore it is..ark.k.k.k.k.kk........ And for a year my life is changed someway, somehow. I'm sorry if you think it turned out so bright, not at all guys. I'm darker in negative perception. Find no way out right now just let it be as it is with a big hole inside. **** i don't like it. Cos life it's like a roller coaster makes me sick.....swing up and down on the rail
