Or it's just another wound.
I had a magazine invited me to gave them an interview.
As time goes, I wait and wait to see its publish.
The interviewer sent me a draft to prove the story before it print.
I did prove and re-write some informations to make it correct.
Eventually the magazine is out on books stand.
Words are twisted awfully.
From the point where “She had quite an experiences, you can learn from her”
to “Most of decisions this woman made in life were wrong, don't ever do that”
I feel betrayed and I don't know what to say.
Interviewer is not to blame, it wasn't she that twisted words and cut off the text that sound positive out.
It was the editor.
Bad stories sell better and I was just another victim. Stupid me.
I do accept the fact that many decision I made in life turn out to be mistakes.
I have no regrets because I did learn a lot of things,
all those experiences made me become a person I am right now.
And I'm confident enough to say “I am a cool person”
I'm not a prettiest or most beautiful, not too smart but far from stupid,
maybe not nicest but I'm a kind with moral.
90% of my friends are gay and that's a task.
(you might wonder why does it has anything to do with that)
well… to be only girls among 10 or 15 gay guys and stay in that position,
I have to maintain myself to be somewhat a woman they want to be.
That is a real challenge.
Being in fame is harmful. Another lesson I just learned.
I dream to be a writer. I really want to be a good writer.
I really want my words to spread out to the world.
I must stay in the light to be seen and hope to be accepted.
Will this light burn me out to death?
Words of a death writer sell better, isn't it?
I am so overwhelmed.
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