I guess it's time to tell you all exactly what's wrong with me and why I am having problems.
Over the past three months I have developed severe edema. What is that? Here's the dictionary definition: "Swelling from excessive accumulation of serous fluid in tissue." It begins in thelower legs and then if it worsens, it moves upward. And that's what's happened to me. It moved into my thighs and most recently into my torso.
I think what's most shocking is that before I developed the problem with edema, my weight on the hospital scales was 70kg. Since then my weight has increased to 81 kg.! And that's all in fluid retention, not fat, not overeating.
Is it painful? In the beginning, no. But as it progresses, yes, it becomes very painful. In my case, it is very painful for me to walk.
Yes, of course I've been working with the doctors to try to solve this problem. It seems about the only cure is medicinal therapy, and if that doesn't work, not much more can be done.
Edema doesn't happen by itself. It needs to have an underlying cause. And that can be cardio-pulmonary, liver disease, or kidney malfunction. So far the doctors have ruled out any kidney problems and don't suspect any cardio-pulmonary problems. So yesterday they did a liver ultrasound and the results show that I have gallstones plus liver disease. I will see the liver specialist on Monday, but I know already that it means saying good bye to Mr. Singha.
The edema saps strength from the legs and my legs have become very weak. I am no longer able to get into the tub in order to shower and have to wash my hair in the sink and give myself a sponge bath. Believe me, it's not fun!
In the meantime, I have been forbidden to go out. I can't go shopping, go out and buy food, or go to parties so I am a prisoner in my own apartment! If the doctors fail to get things under control, I will be permanently crippled.
So now you know why I haven't been to any TF events in almost 3 months. Nor will I sign up for any new events until things begin to improve. I'm still going to do my best to make it to the birthday event on the 23rd but if I go I may not stay long. I'm trying to work out the details now. I'll need some help in order to go.
So there you have it. Yes, my condition right now is very serious. No more hiding the facts from you.
I am fooking depressed!