I'm proud to inform you guys that my BF just asked me to break up.

He said "You disturb me and give me a negative energy, I want to break up and be alone"

Me "Ok, Hope you will be so much happy without me" (I'm really do)

2 hours earlier, we were talking about a pile trouble from a year ago its about my personal business which someone had sued me and I have to go to the court to make some testimony. I'm so depressed about this because I dont think anyone will wants to have a life behind bars, anything went okay not too bad even it was not good enough to make me feel better and he was always with me to help me with everything he could do until last night.....

He sent video link to me and wanted me to watch, I was like hmm okay I'll do that... I was working and since the video had nothing much with graphic I just only listen and kept working in the same time..

When it was going to the end I realized it was something about Scientology but I did admit that most of what they talk about was good but the problem was...

While I was so upset about going to change something in my life and yes, "its our lives" I just want to make it better and its normal to upset sometimes. He got mad that I didnt do what he told me to do by force my feelings to feel something that I never felt. He claimed "My boss is super big in Navy because he does believe in this kind of thing" I also agree like I said above "some part of the video was fine to live and learn but they cant change faith to be blind faith..

I know he's misunderstanding something like the others do or even "Tom Cruise" he does make some people feel sick of what he believe first I didnt feel anything with those Scientologist but now I realized...

They say people have to think only in positive way to get what they want but my brain had questioned me a lot

To be positive "I'm so lazy okay I dont work anymore but wow I'll be so rich because money is growing on the trees"

To be another positive "OMFG a huge truck just drove over me and it cut me into pieces but no I'm not dead because the pieces of me will be back together and I'm not dead, will never ever die.."

Thats what I told him and he so upset ... = breaking point "I want to break up"

Keep going darling you are young and handsome but please remember I'm better than you because my life is realistic not in a hand of anyone.

Not longer than 24 hours he will tries to get me back as always (usually less than 2 hours) "Goddamnit"

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Edited : As I wrote above that usually less than 2hours he will tries to get me back and he did, my point to write this journal was different from the other members

because our problem was about he misunderstood something and we didnt do anything unfaithful it was just a suck "Scientology"

if he is trying to get you into scientology...DUMP THE FREAK!!!!

hm...i want to say it in general I don't know about those Scientologist ... I have never heard about them cause maybe I'm not interested in it I'm safe here with my own believe BUT !! I was just asking my boyfriend and he just told me that ....... something isn't in good words maybe not so good if I writing a negative thing about them

U re grown enough to decide about that..ummm... scientology...And u have right to express your opinion - so, if he doesnt unerstand, I pity for him...he dont deserve such a Gorgeous creature ))

as I said he will be back not less than 2 hours and he is trying his best to make me understand right now..

And he doesnt even know what he's believing is called scientology because he just has brainwashed

Oh no.. Sorry to hear about this.. sweeties..

"Scientologist" is f*cking disgusting.. They just manipulate people..

Money is what important for them.. bloody sick..

I love South Park when they take the piss out of them.. It was briillant!!

Agree with Iain there...

brainwashed posh creatures only in for the lumpy money.

too repeat above you need to be your own person with your own beliefs

if they are not truly your own ...someday you will wonder what the basis of your life is

Do not be bullied! I think the Scientology guys losea lot of their free-will and as you say - blind faith

so it may cause unhappy moments ahead ...but a lovely person will meet her lovely person!

gather your friends around and go foward...wish you the best, and glad you are proud!

The problem is, you dated a young handsome guy - try an old ugly one...

(I'm free on Sundays)

Scientologist ? Ouch, Run Run run, hey ! Faster ! And don't turn back please !

Ya wounded, but ya not slain. Ya shall lay yrself down and rest for awhile, and then ya will rise and fight again...

LOLs thanks everyone at least I'm laughing ^_______^

Being a scientologist is one thing; but being a scientologist and gay is quite another. He is obviously emasculated by your gorgeousness!

it seems like I'm the one who dump him because he said he wanna leave but opposite he's the one who get hurt '

I'm with most on this. Move on. The fact that he wanted to change you is not a good sign. To scientology....well no. Be who you are and be happy in that. Never change yourself for anyone but you!

Best not to do your dirty laundry in public, really, it puts you in a bad light.

End it nicely and leave quietly.

I'd also say: Have the 'balls for once' and move on.

Btw a relation over the internet or telephone is no real relation (for me).

You are young and should make much more real experiences in this age, otherwise you may regret it when you're older (as I do lol, so what I'm saying is: don't make the same mistakes others have made already).

beej thanks for the advise I think whatever I do here it always a bad light anyway because people just like to make a rumor so better to let them know from me not from the others

Andy_bkk how young is young? lol you might have a big surprise if you know my age, my relationship with him is not as anyone think I've been with him for 4 years we lived together until he work as a Navy officer in his country

"I've been with him for 4 years we lived together until he work as a Navy officer in his country "

hmm, if you are already 'so old' then maybe in this case the better sentence would be:

"I am living together with him in his country while he works there as Navy officer"

Andy my English is not that good what I wanted to say is "he was in Thailand with me then left to his country for this job" sorry I'm not native English speaker ^^