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Quit smoking journey # 1


sinderella

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08 April 2009 03.00am

I had my last cigarette.

Same day in the afternoon, I had a meeting with my adviser.

We talked about my motivation of quitting and how we gonna get there.

Martin Lever ( aka Marty) my adviser, he was a heavy smoker before

he smoked for 20 years ( mine is 11years).

Now he quit totally, he is also a vegetarian and he exercises regularly.

Back to my motivation.

Well, it has been years that my family keeps yelling, begging that I quit.

They don't like it obviously...

My boyfriend doesn't smoke and actually he don't like smoker.

He try to look beyond it and put up with me anyway.

I would say many people in my life put up with me even tho they hate smokers.

I should be grateful for that.

Still, none of these people has anything to do with my motivation.

Even though I do love them very much, but there is one thing I will have to remember is

I could never accomplish this by put my motivation on pleasing anybody else but myself.

So... it must be all about me.

I start to smoke when I'm 18.

I will be 30 this year.

I think this is the time.

I don't wanna look old... and I think it will be nice for others to see that I look good.

I had a weirdest idea since I'm 13 that I will die when I'm 30.

Time past, I grown up a lot and I learned that the idea of killing yourself at the age of 30 just because you don't want to be remembered as an old woman is kinda stupid.

So... I choose to live and try to look young.

It has been 6 days and a half now since my last cigarette.

There is a lot of craving, sometime strong, sometime quickly gone.

Marty suggest that I use nicotine gum for now.

He told me that what I'm addicted in a cigarette is only nicotine but there are thousands of chemical stuffs that bad for my body come with it.

So every time I have the craving I reach for the gum.

It taste nasty at first, and I'm not suppose to chew it all the time.

Chew and feel the nasty taste, stop, hide it under your tongue, chew again when nasty taste gone, keep doing that and try to keep it in your mouth for about 20 mins each time.

Now I get used to the gum and it's kinda boring.

One of the reason that I wanna quit smoking is because I bore with it too.

I talked to Marty everyday, tell him the symptoms such as I wanna kill my boyfriend and my chest hurts (which he explain that because my lung and my heart not used to lot of oxygen).

For his opinion I'm doing well, cause no matter how much I wanna smoke I still don't.

So...hopefully I can quit for good this time.

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08 April 2009 03.00am

I had my last cigarette.

Same day in the afternoon, I had a meeting with my adviser.

We talked about my motivation of quitting and how we gonna get there.

Martin Lever ( aka Marty) my adviser, he was a heavy smoker before

he smoked for 20 years ( mine is 11years).

Now he quit totally, he is also a vegetarian and he exercises regularly.

Back to my motivation.

Well, it has been years that my family keeps yelling, begging that I quit.

They don't like it obviously...

My boyfriend doesn't smoke and actually he don't like smoker.

He try to look beyond it and put up with me anyway.

I would say many people in my life put up with me even tho they hate smokers.

I should be grateful for that.

Still, none of these people has anything to do with my motivation.

Even though I do love them very much, but there is one thing I will have to remember is

I could never accomplish this by put my motivation on pleasing anybody else but myself.

So... it must be all about me.

I start to smoke when I'm 18.

I will be 30 this year.

I think this is the time.

I don't wanna look old... and I think it will be nice for others to see that I look good.

I had a weirdest idea since I'm 13 that I will die when I'm 30.

Time past, I grown up a lot and I learned that the idea of killing yourself at the age of 30 just because you don't want to be remembered as an old woman is kinda stupid.

So... I choose to live and try to look young.

It has been 6 days and a half now since my last cigarette.

There is a lot of craving, sometime strong, sometime quickly gone.

Marty suggest that I use nicotine gum for now.

He told me that what I'm addicted in a cigarette is only nicotine but there are thousands of chemical stuffs that bad for my body come with it.

So every time I have the craving I reach for the gum.

It taste nasty at first, and I'm not suppose to chew it all the time.

Chew and feel the nasty taste, stop, hide it under your tongue, chew again when nasty taste gone, keep doing that and try to keep it in your mouth for about 20 mins each time.

Now I get used to the gum and it's kinda boring.

One of the reason that I wanna quit smoking is because I bore with it too.

I talked to Marty everyday, tell him the symptoms such as I wanna kill my boyfriend and my chest hurts (which he explain that because my lung and my heart not used to lot of oxygen).

For his opinion I'm doing well, cause no matter how much I wanna smoke I still don't.

So...hopefully I can quit for good this time.

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There are some nasty mental stages when you quit smoking, but interesting is, quitting takes about 3 weeks and your body will be clean from nicotine. So it is worth it. Nicorette would help your mentaly but wouldn't clean your body." It wouldn't kill the monster". There are few mental stages during those 3 weeks. If you PM i write you a bit more about it

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hey its all in the head babe

helps me just to not be around smokers as much

i say i smoke when im drunk or really tipsy but lately i dont drink as much either except for holidays

other than that i dont smoke

take it slow and dont beat urself up to much

if u do have a cigg after a week or two of not

it will taste like **** anyway (unless ur drinkin)

so eat more, chew gum or suck a pretzel

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The hardest cravings are after you eat, right? Fight hard, the cigarette companies spent allot of money on research to make smoking the hardest adiction to quit, harder than heroin, and the gum just reinforces the adiction.

Fight like you are fighting for your life, which in reality you are.

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Every time you're tempted to light up, think of two things: the money you'll save by saying no and the life you'll save as well - your own. Good luck with quitting, it's the best lifestyle choice you can make

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