Yeah, it was definitely something which was absolutely frustrating, exhausting and exciting. Me and my mates were having few drinks and relaxing,, you know,, girl’s conversation talking about lives and love.. One of the girls from my table bought a local alcohol that made from palm trees. I hardly drunk but because of I was allergic to  alcohol and I did not like the tease… one exception I did like Vodka shoots. .Alright let’s went back to the talks show, I sat on the table opposite of the street so that I could see  people passing by. One moment ..Oh goshhh.. all of my breathing stopped for ten seconds.. it was him standing right in front of the me but  entrance of the shop. He was talking to the waiter while I was checking on him… “Oh my god.. check him out”, I said to my friends. Three girls turned around their head at the same time then smiled. “ rr.. he is so cute..” , I repeated.

One of my friends said , “yes.. he is , but he is not my type”.

“Oh really?, I am glad to hear that.. then I can take him, hehe”, I said happily. “He left”, I said, another one of my friend said , “ he is cute, but may be he will come back”. She was damned right, he came back few minutes later. This time he entered into the restaurant then sat on the table at the corner of the entrance and opposite of my sight seeing so that I could see his face very closely.

 I put my hand on my mouth for cover, then I whispered to my friends,  “he is here.. let me check him out”. my girls were the best, guessed what?.. , we were stalking on him in our language as we realized that he couldn’t understand what were discussing his appearances , personalities. If a  guy had the perfect facts to a girl, he scored ten marks. i gave him full score no matter what my friends though.. it was fair enough, right?

 Oh well, he was mine in our table finally then I start to look at his eyes smiling and showing interests in us. May be I was the one he was thinking, that what I wished at that very moment and I was correct..

He and I had eyes contacts quite a lot of times and I did not hear anything that my friends said. I was totally out of the lives and love talks…  

He had very brilliant eyes which I defined i firstly in loved with,,, No.. I did not think so.. he had very soft lips too and he looked perfect even though his nose looked bigger than I used to see others. Oh may be.. that nose I liked.. mm no.. He was tall and one of the fifties kinds… alright I praised him too much,, may be over expressing his looks. At least for me, he had great looks.  If I may said so, I believed in love at first sight . while he was drinking his beer his eyes were very temptation and I knew he fancied me. So I smiled at him.

One thing to tell you that, Smiling is one of the girl’s weapons to attract guys, never forget that… I gave him  the best smile to him and in return i got cute smile from him , which meant he noticed me.

 After eyes contacts and smiles  Showing of my 32 teeth , I couldn’t stop smiling.  You know,, one thing of smiling? Girls smile when they are shy too. At least it was true for me as I was shy being stared at. I was so afraid not to see him again, so, I told my friends to keep on talking until he left… they were such a nice friends you know..

 I told my friends that I would come back to this shop in order to have dinner at the evening. Two of the girls said they could not come. So I had to ask my colleague who closely working with me.

 “ Ma Tin Tin hla, that was her name, I wish to have dinner here today. I will buy you nice dinner, so come with me”, I told her with high volume. She accepted my offer, besides she probably knew my plan.

 Soon, he finished bottle then left. Then I felt my heart was empty… not really empty but almost… !!  it was time to separate from the table and we went home respectively, except Ma Tin Hla, who was going to sleep over at my house.

That whole afternoon took almost a year, I felt. I missed him. And I was hoping to see him again. You know what.. I felt not normal, may be too much exciting. I could feel my brain was  so hot that it was almost blow up.

I waited impatiently for dinner time. Finally it was time that I was waiting for. We were at the same place and I sat the same seat he sat that afternoon because I wanted to believe that he was with me. I still could feel part of him,, even it was a short period when love is all around us if I looked closely.

The restaurant was nosier than it should be. Most of the table were empty except the last large table at the end of the room.. few men were drinking. Oh… I forgot to mention that that restaurant was quite and nice place and not allow alcohol.. but I had no idea why those middle age men were with one jonnie walker each.

One of the men ,who seemed to be drunk and head of  table , was checking on  me and my friend. But it was  obvious that we were just simple person because we wore nothing sexy. However, he came straight to our table and sat empty chair next to me , saying without a permit.

It was very rude and he started to create a conversation in English. Oh gosh,,,, that guy spoke English. I told him leave us alone and I wanted to have privacy with my friend. Anyway I did not want a weird stranger who leering at me. It was pathetic and scary. May be it was sexual harassment… no..  not may be. It was definitely sexual harassment…

The waiters and owner of the shop helped us solving that problem. They requested that drunk man to go back to his table and leave us alone. He left ..

So I was trying look at the menu for dinner but I was not hungry at all. But I kept on reading the menu over and over again… my heart was melting away and I felt empty because I realized that I could never ever meet him again… I sighted  in a countless times.

I asked my friend, “ Ma Tin Hla, he would not come back here, would he?”.

She nodded saying ,“Inn”, which means yes.

Ma Tin Hla continued, “May be it was not meant to be, look, you are here now,, just have your dinner, don’t think too much”.

“Yeah I know, I am silly, but I wish to see him only once more”, I said.

 “Ok.. I know, now let’s order our food, then let’s leave here as soon as we can.. the men over there look not nice”, she added.

“Alright,, I understand”, I replied. Then we ordered our own dishes. After the moment diner was served. But it was no use because I did not see the dishes as food. I only saw his face and smiling eyes.

“How was your classes today? I think we should change our text book”, Ma Tin Hla made comment on our school and actually she switched the topic. She was a great friend. I understood she did not want to see me sad and trapped in this very moment.  

“I agree, may be we should start reading class, beginner book would do for students”, I revealed. Soon we started our meal but he did not show up again. It seemed to me a breathing was so heavy and I though a big stone stopped my respiratory organs in my chest. i was just staring my fried noodle and picked some vegetables.

Great story! Keep in mind that sometimes farangs do understand what you're talking about...we like to "aep fang"

oh i forgot to say.. TO be continued....

:-)

Nola29187 wrote " Smiling is one of the girl?s weapons to attract guys, never forget that"

Couldn't agree more.

It's fun reading, Nola. Waiting for the next.

I'll be waiting to read your next journal

Good entry, you hopeless romantic!