I hardly write something about me on cyber world ,probably just wanted to keep it privacy but it just come to the point that I felt what I am doing here is only good for me but to fit every things in with my plan seems impossible for instance;

I wanted to go back to school for one more degree as my future career will fit in well but there is no university that provide the subject I want to study around here with my current location.

I wanted my little one to be close to her dad  for heart immunity as she is growing up and I feel insecure raising her in country side and unable to be there and look after her in every day live.

To build a home in a BKK is so expensive and to live with pollution isn’t a great idea but according to education system ,BKK seems to have much more offer and better place for my daughter. Because there is no way that I will let her go to UK with the dad’s family.

This has been agreed between me and my ex bf that what is best for our child we will do anything we could. I took enough time to cope all emotional issue between us and moved on already.Wait—I ‘m not 100% sure that he is over me though ,still got a message once awhile when he got drunk-grrrr.

Lately I found myself devoting 90% of my time to work and other but not my family and when I went home last weekend I felt so guilty that I have so little time for them especially my little angle. She was so happy to see her mom and told me that I wasn ’t sure that you are coming home so I took your picture to school today. I cried in my heart once hear that and because of the result of the past three weeks of work here in Surin didn’t turn out well and now I am thinking is it worth for being here and got to be away from home .

Work has been rewarding but it took so much energy out of me , I committed for a year work and now it four months past and seems that my battery has dropped down . Next year planning is going to be busy as hell and to deal with each person expectation from what they are paid for –I realized that’s why I don’t see the management around – coz it’s impossible to win, oh  there is way but it’s required much more effort and to do it myself alone without them being there I will be blamed for all mistaken.

Time is flying and I seem to compete with it and all my goal. To run my own business is in the plan but to start it I will need a web designer  instead of me doing all the work otherwise it would never be finish, to get myself more degree is in a row but which university concerning the fund, to get my little one for better school in BKK is planned but have to see where her new home location would be as I leave it to my ex to get an actual home not a renting one.

Anything else beyond these I will have to adjust myself in to the gap , with spirit of my heart & soul I will make it through although it’s a long way run. I do need hands but wouldn’t hold my breath for

– the mother hands crated the world-

Being a working, single mother is tough. Stay strong and good luck.

Yes life at times can be tough and a *****,but sounds like you might be run down a little and maybe a bit depressed.

Your ex sounds like he has thoughts of you and I find at times when I'm drunk I think about past also.

Its not always we should think about when we have moved on and have a future.

You seem to have plans so keep your head up,keep smiling.

Wish you well in future!

I hope there is at least some financial support coming from UK, for the child's well-being/education.

choices, choices....

to be a cool mom & a business girl is tough, darling, hope everything is great for you na

Have you considered Chiang Mai, many University here and cost of living much lower than BKK.

You can't start a business and do a degree. Pick one or the other, or risk failing at both.

There is many things on your plate it seems. You need to sit down and write down on a peice of paper all of the plans and ideas you have, then take a look at that paper each day and start taking small steps each day towards your goals.

Wish you the best of luck. It will not be easy. as you already know, but never give up, and look at your daughter to give you that strength you need when you feel tired, and drained. She will motivate you more than anyone ever could.

All the best for you, whatever you decide. I know it'd break your heart to send your daughter to live so far away. Though the education in the uk is better than here (as well as there's no pollution as much as in BKK). I'd have to say she's such a little angel.