Another month has passed, and I feel like I haven't done anything worthwhile. Life has been full of uncertainly and surprises for me. I am still looking at 2010 with anything but confidence. As great as things has turned out for me, since I arrived back in BKK, I wish I finally come to a conclusion and direction, I should be pursuing. I cannot even tell, what's gonna happen with my life in the next two weeks, and I find that really frustrating!

With all the unknown around me, I manage to stay positive. I haven't been whiny nor grumpy with my bf for a while now. I guess it makes a big difference in my mood each day as well. When I am in a good mood, he is in a good mood, and I'll continue being in a good mood. What an effect! This is a part of my goal this year, to be less depressed than I was last year. I think a big part of it is that I quit my previous job. Despite my unforeseeable financial situation, I do not feel as depressed as when I was still working there.

On a different note, I was reading a short story by F. Scott Fitzgerald called "The Ice Palace". Although the theme is the American Dreams and being disillusion, it reminds me so much of the reoccurring phenomenon of under privilege (Asian/Thai) girls, who try to marry foreigner for a better life. I could get the message all totally wrong though. At least I enjoy reading, and enjoy the memory of being in the university again.

Looking forward to receiving a few important e-mails. I wanna receive them now, please!  

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BD...I am confused...(look back at your recent JNs)...

I can understand your hoping for the best of the recent opportunties to arrive

so you can pick and choose...but didn't recently remark how the timing had been

fortunate for you and circumstances around you?

Deep breath...unless I misunderstood more than one excellant opportunity was at hand.

Run!... with what you can control ...sit back ....for what will be brought to your door.

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Danno -- You got it right. There's this one excellent opportunity that I am currently waiting for. Yet, there's another e-mail that I am expecting, although it's not so much work related. As great as all things have been to me, I still don't exactly like the part that my future is unpredictable/uncontrollable. I always have plans in life, but now I cannot really do much. I guess staying positive and be patient are the only two things I have control over right now.

Thanks a lot for all your comments!