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I have been discovered Britney Spears new music vdo a few days ago

which said it is the best song of 2011 year. I keep listening everyday, but it’s not because it’s the song of the year but it makes me want to dance every time I hear this song, which normally I don’t feel like I want to dance, especially when I am at this age.

I admired this young lady of how she handling her life and public life that attract attention since she first becomes famous, popular singer, and after heart broken her life turn upside down and be the subject of criticism everyday. I hardly heard she respond or excuse against her negative criticism. I think she must be a strong mental young lady who success in everything except relationship. When men come into her life her career becomes messy, this is telling us how imperfection she is. I’ve seen some women who success in their careers but once relationship get involved, their lives turn upside down. I hope she’s learnt a lot from her past and be a decent young lady who captivates a world heart like before. She comes back to take her role as a popular singer again and hope this would be forever for her. Well, that what can I say; every dog has its day!

I must say that her music vdo make me young again (can’t believe it 5555). Sometimes when I playing her music I keep singing along and dancing as if I were 15. And pause vdo to see her butt cheeks via see through dress, even if those cheeks don’t look like Shakira’s but for me it’s not bad at all. 5555

I went to a massage parlor and while waiting for a massage ready, I saw a girl who was a client of it parlor, she was beautiful that you can find 1 in among 10,000 girls. Once she gone a massage lady who massaged her told us that the girl told her that she was a mistress of a politician (minister) but didn’t happy with her life because she has to stay in luxury place but never went out with him in public places because he has wife and kids and he only takes his wife and kids to public events. Finally, she decided to break up and now she has a Farang bf. I’m no surprised that she found a bf so easily!

There is a masseur at that parlor and once he heard that beautiful girl story, he said “the most beautiful girl is too scary, but too ugly one is not attractive and that’s why I am still singleâ€, I thought maybe this is what most Thai guys thinking of girls in general but I think I’m lucky that I’m not end up with them. Once I finished massage and was about to leave. The masseur asked me what I’m going to do; I told him I’m going to a market to buy some eggs to cook for myself. He then said “I thought I want to ask you out to have some drink together, if you like?. Suddenly, I have no further word but walk out of that parlor. When I’m at my place I tried to think of what this masseur hints me. I was thinking back in mid of February I remembered what I told him that I’m just back from Karnchanaburi trip with friends and he asks me if I can get him some information about a trip and also ask where I live, which I told him where but once he asked who I am staying with. It made me uncomforted to answer but said I stay with my cousins.

When I gave him information trip to Karnchanaburi, he told me he cannot find partner to go with and I remembered while he pressed between my thighs his breathing loud & deep but I think of nothing because he seems like a nice guy and I kind of like him but now I am just not sure whether I should go there or somewhere else. I like this parlor because it is not too far to walk and a previous one which more closer to where I live was unprofessional.... because while I was half sleep I felt a ladyboy masseur using one hand massaging me and when I open my eyes I saw one of his hand kept texting his mobile phone to someone and since then I stopping go there. And this parlor is second place that I think I would become their regular client.

My husband gives me an incentive that if I got a job in duration of waiting for my visa granted which is about 6- 9 months, he will visit me. So, now I am trying hard to get a job and went to some job interviews already. I do it because my husband wanted because he afraid that I will be crazy by doing nothing. Since I told him that my mom made me sad and crazy because she believes she going to lose me forever if I gone to NZ. She said when she thinks of losing me, her heart pain as if a hammer pounding on her chest, she also asked me if I have ever considered to look for a permanent job and live forever in Thailand. Last month the climate changed rapidly from hot to cold and a little drizzle. And I caught a cold and when I told my mom, she believes it’s the affected from Japanese nuclear leaking which the chemical flowing in the wind to Thailand and that's why i catch a cold. And every time when she speaking nonsense i would be silent because i don't know how to deal with her plight. I talk to her again last week and what shocked me most is when she said “sometime I thinking that I want you to break up with your husband because I can’t stance the earthquake in NZ… I chosen not to respond because I don’t think she would understand it and if she does,….it would take days or months to make her understand. She was not finished even grade 2, and how can I blame her?. I think she is guilty of what she done to me when I was young by let me alone at home day and night and now she realized that our time together was less compare to her other kids and that is why she want me here but she forgot that I need my freedom and do whatever satisfied me. I discovered that I suffer childhood trauma a few years ago and I have to take sleeping pills because I can’t sleep in each night and I had severe migraine and heart problem but I get better and I think it'd been healed. My marriage is the best thing in my life because its balance me and I stop taking all kind of pills that I used to.

I got another job interview tomorrow at 11 AM which is near where I live, so I’m ready now. It is not easy to find a job when you are 40 because most job ad say that age not over 35. I learn how to drive these days and when I told him I’m 40 what he said was I though you were 30..lol…I’m glad to hear that.

After marriage I gain weight and try to lose it by change my eating behavior from evening to be morning and each meal got to be fresh food and not too full. I’ve been doing this since last week and guess what? I lost almost 1 kg and I intend to lose about 1.30kg which is 0.30 or 40kg more to lose, it is not far to my goal. I accept oldness but I can’t accept it if my body would change now as far as I’m not reach 43-45 or having baby I could not let my body look like a sag of water, I mean losing firm. I don’t care if my face will be full of feet crows but my body got to be the same as long as I am happy with it. Anyway, I don’t like lotion or make up stuffs but I will use sun block when I planning to go out in day time.

I love to joke my cousins to see their feed back when I told them that I am too old and I think I’m a barren now. So I think I will use my egg and my husband sperm together and will put in your tummy. What I saw is one of my cousins even stop chewing food with her jaw open and her eyes are big as if a ping pong ball. 5555… but my fun stop when I said the same to one of my friend because her feed back is “I will do it but I don’t need your egg and your husband got to inject his sperm to me by himself…. . So, my joke turns me from fun to something else…lol….

Most of my friends always say that “ I believe you can be a good mother if you have baby†and what I respond to them is “ I could be a good mother if I have a good husband†don’t you think it is make sense? :)

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I have been discovered Britney Spears new music vdo a few days ago

which said it is the best song of 2011 year. I keep listening everyday, but it’s not because it’s the song of the year but it makes me want to dance every time I hear this song, which normally I don’t feel like I want to dance, especially when I am at this age.

I admired this young lady of how she handling her life and public life that attract attention since she first becomes famous, popular singer, and after heart broken her life turn upside down and be the subject of criticism everyday. I hardly heard she respond or excuse against her negative criticism. I think she must be a strong mental young lady who success in everything except relationship. When men come into her life her career becomes messy, this is telling us how imperfection she is. I’ve seen some women who success in their careers but once relationship get involved, their lives turn upside down. I hope she’s learnt a lot from her past and be a decent young lady who captivates a world heart like before. She comes back to take her role as a popular singer again and hope this would be forever for her. Well, that what can I say; every dog has its day!

I must say that her music vdo make me young again (can’t believe it 5555). Sometimes when I playing her music I keep singing along and dancing as if I were 15. And pause vdo to see her butt cheeks via see through dress, even if those cheeks don’t look like Shakira’s but for me it’s not bad at all. 5555

I went to a massage parlor and while waiting for a massage ready, I saw a girl who was a client of it parlor, she was beautiful that you can find 1 in among 10,000 girls. Once she gone a massage lady who massaged her told us that the girl told her that she was a mistress of a politician (minister) but didn’t happy with her life because she has to stay in luxury place but never went out with him in public places because he has wife and kids and he only takes his wife and kids to public events. Finally, she decided to break up and now she has a Farang bf. I’m no surprised that she found a bf so easily!

There is a masseur at that parlor and once he heard that beautiful girl story, he said “the most beautiful girl is too scary, but too ugly one is not attractive and that’s why I am still singleâ€, I thought maybe this is what most Thai guys thinking of girls in general but I think I’m lucky that I’m not end up with them. Once I finished massage and was about to leave. The masseur asked me what I’m going to do; I told him I’m going to a market to buy some eggs to cook for myself. He then said “I thought I want to ask you out to have some drink together, if you like?. Suddenly, I have no further word but walk out of that parlor. When I’m at my place I tried to think of what this masseur hints me. I was thinking back in mid of February I remembered what I told him that I’m just back from Karnchanaburi trip with friends and he asks me if I can get him some information about a trip and also ask where I live, which I told him where but once he asked who I am staying with. It made me uncomforted to answer but said I stay with my cousins.

When I gave him information trip to Karnchanaburi, he told me he cannot find partner to go with and I remembered while he pressed between my thighs his breathing loud & deep but I think of nothing because he seems like a nice guy and I kind of like him but now I am just not sure whether I should go there or somewhere else. I like this parlor because it is not too far to walk and a previous one which more closer to where I live was unprofessional.... because while I was half sleep I felt a ladyboy masseur using one hand massaging me and when I open my eyes I saw one of his hand kept texting his mobile phone to someone and since then I stopping go there. And this parlor is second place that I think I would become their regular client.

My husband gives me an incentive that if I got a job in duration of waiting for my visa granted which is about 6- 9 months, he will visit me. So, now I am trying hard to get a job and went to some job interviews already. I do it because my husband wanted because he afraid that I will be crazy by doing nothing. Since I told him that my mom made me sad and crazy because she believes she going to lose me forever if I gone to NZ. She said when she thinks of losing me, her heart pain as if a hammer pounding on her chest, she also asked me if I have ever considered to look for a permanent job and live forever in Thailand. Last month the climate changed rapidly from hot to cold and a little drizzle. And I caught a cold and when I told my mom, she believes it’s the affected from Japanese nuclear leaking which the chemical flowing in the wind to Thailand and that's why i catch a cold. And every time when she speaking nonsense i would be silent because i don't know how to deal with her plight. I talk to her again last week and what shocked me most is when she said “sometime I thinking that I want you to break up with your husband because I can’t stance the earthquake in NZ… I chosen not to respond because I don’t think she would understand it and if she does,….it would take days or months to make her understand. She was not finished even grade 2, and how can I blame her?. I think she is guilty of what she done to me when I was young by let me alone at home day and night and now she realized that our time together was less compare to her other kids and that is why she want me here but she forgot that I need my freedom and do whatever satisfied me. I discovered that I suffer childhood trauma a few years ago and I have to take sleeping pills because I can’t sleep in each night and I had severe migraine and heart problem but I get better and I think it'd been healed. My marriage is the best thing in my life because its balance me and I stop taking all kind of pills that I used to.

I got another job interview tomorrow at 11 AM which is near where I live, so I’m ready now. It is not easy to find a job when you are 40 because most job ad say that age not over 35. I learn how to drive these days and when I told him I’m 40 what he said was I though you were 30..lol…I’m glad to hear that.

After marriage I gain weight and try to lose it by change my eating behavior from evening to be morning and each meal got to be fresh food and not too full. I’ve been doing this since last week and guess what? I lost almost 1 kg and I intend to lose about 1.30kg which is 0.30 or 40kg more to lose, it is not far to my goal. I accept oldness but I can’t accept it if my body would change now as far as I’m not reach 43-45 or having baby I could not let my body look like a sag of water, I mean losing firm. I don’t care if my face will be full of feet crows but my body got to be the same as long as I am happy with it. Anyway, I don’t like lotion or make up stuffs but I will use sun block when I planning to go out in day time.

I love to joke my cousins to see their feed back when I told them that I am too old and I think I’m a barren now. So I think I will use my egg and my husband sperm together and will put in your tummy. What I saw is one of my cousins even stop chewing food with her jaw open and her eyes are big as if a ping pong ball. 5555… but my fun stop when I said the same to one of my friend because her feed back is “I will do it but I don’t need your egg and your husband got to inject his sperm to me by himself…. . So, my joke turns me from fun to something else…lol….

Most of my friends always say that “ I believe you can be a good mother if you have baby†and what I respond to them is “ I could be a good mother if I have a good husband†don’t you think it is make sense? :)

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In nature, nothing is perfect and everything is perfect. Trees can be contorted, bent in weird ways, and they're still beautiful.â€

Alice Walker quotes (American writer, b.1944)

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I think you would make an awesome mother, though your age is a big issue at the moment.

And getting a job is a good idea...it will stop you from going crazy. Love your journals and I've been missing them these past months. Good to see you, Soda.

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It's really good that your learning to drive, job hunting & close to your weight loss goal. I wish you the best of luck to keep at it! :D

You should find a massage place that makes you feel comfortable. The whole point of having a massage is to relax.

I hope you & your husband are reunited soon :)

ps. Keep shaking your thang to Britney!!! haha

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