Not exactly an appropriate moment to post a journal but I feel like getting this out of my system.
I have been thinking and rethinking about a few things the past week. It's all in the future and I am not sure how things are going to turn out but I cannot help assuming, expecting, and worrying, most of the time for the worst rather than for the best.
Work-wise, my boss is looking for a new opportunity. He has been supportive and protective of me during the past year and 3 months that I have been working in this position. If he is to leave, I'd pretty much be left with an ass-creep idiot, who doesn't seem to wanna leave this extreme comfort zone.
Being just an employee at the lowest of the food chain, I do not have any negotiating power to say who I want as a boss. My options are quite limited right now.
1. I can try asking not to work under this ass-creep idiot and report directly to the bigger boss.
2. If that doesn't work, then I stay until I complete my 2 years working under the idiot and suffer everyday of work.
3. Resign... and start looking for a new job, living on my saving in the meantime.
I'll know in a few weeks, how this is going to turn out.
Another thing that has been bothering me is moving overseas to be with my boyfriend. It is not going to happen this year, but being me, I cannot help but assuming the worse. I am not sure how many Thai people, who moved overseas, actually get a good job.
Being a middle class here is much easier and have better quality of life than in Western countries, in my opinion. I can take taxi anytime I want, dine in a restaurant (not fine dining though) a few times a week, drink Starbucks every day and would still have enough money to give to my family and put in saving. I doubt I'd be able to find a job that would allow me to maintain this lifestyle in Europe.
I am debating if I'd regret moving over to Europe and leaving basically "everything" behind in order to be with the man I love.
If you were to choose love and money, what would be your choice?