It's been months since i've been last active here, but actually, I've been poping up a number of time and only a few minutes coz havn't got enough time. In the last 3 months I'd to deal with some personal problems and now it seems alright. when i feeling upset i always ask myself if i'm abit too selfish to want thing done in my favore and that kept me tolerant for sometime until i realized that it's nothing wrong to be selfish sometime and to do so, you'd have your own boundary and respect. I have no regret of what i'd been done, in fact, i'm quite satified with the result........ sometime i can be real bad.......
I've been living oversea for almost two weeks and my life doesn't change much, I still be a same person, enjoying shop for special reduced price stuffs. I shower once a day in the evening coz my husband said cost of living here are much more expensive than in Thailand, so i try to save the world energy as much as i can, and to do this it's not because i can't afford luxury life style but to think of others who're living poor and I used to be poor and work hard to earn money, and that make me think i'm ok to live economic life as long as i'm happy. I know everything here is quite expensive than in Thailand but there are some cheaper as well, for example i bought an avocado in BKK cost me THB 59 each but here i paid 1 nz dollar for 6 avocados, and I bought THB 7 for an apple in bkk but here i get 7 apples for 1 nz dollar cost....(i'm the opportunist)....but salmon is very expensive here, I have them for 4 straight days when i first arrived with dark green veggies and French salad dressing oh yummm, i lost weight 1 or 2 kg without my intention. I don't care much about slim or fat but i love having a firm physique, so on working day when my husband go to work, I love walking to Westfeild Mall every day which is about 3-4 km far from where i live and it's good exercise, especailly when you are aging, I read about it..hehe... the most important thing is having a healthy physique, then a clear vision and healthy mental will be follow.....
I don't know how much per week for economic expense here but i will do my best to save as much as i can coz it's fun to shop for cheaper goods, my husband will give me his cash card to do financial control, at first i don't like it but for our own saving sake I'll see if i can control his drinking and smoking..hehe.... he wants me to work but I'm just arrived and my visa's condition say that under visitor visa, i'm not allow to work and if caught up i will be deported. I talked to a Thaiwanese girl who's married a kiwi guy who work at the same place of my husband. she advised me to apply for a work visa but i think i need to get use to the environment first then i'll do something and probably in the next couple months i'll try to apply for work visa for partner.
I met many ppl who's in my husband circle and they're nice ppl, they love having fun and laugh, they have a simple live style here. Which i like it a lot.
As usual, today i walked to the mall to buy food for my husband, i spend 4.70 for a chillied pack and a beef pack. while i was walking out the mall, a boy in his twenties approached me and hand me a small plastic cup with a white cream in it, at first i thought it was something to eat but when i looked at his counter, it's body lotions. he showed me a nail polish foam and hand lotion and how to use it, I want to tell him that i'm not use this stuffs at all but afraid it would be rude so i let him go on and on. he then showed me a small tube with a top knot and ask me if i know what it is. I told him it's an eyes cream, he said no, it's not and you're too young to use eyes cream, you are twenty, right? i was embarrassed when he ask if i'm twenty and i replied no, i'm not... i'm very old, then he kept asked how old i am but i answered same. He insists im twenty, while he kept gauging my age, and ask who i'm living with but i din't tell him and he then said it's good to be single living in this city. I want to tell him that i'm not single but since he think i'm twenty i don't say a word and luckily, there was a senior lady interested in his product and it's good chance for me to excuse myself out.....he has Italian look and I don't catch up with his italian accent much....once i arrived home i rush in a mirror to check my appearance coz i'm not confidence and never thought i'm a good looking one but when i look oh my wrinkles are almost gone, probably fresh food and good air. I've stop applied cream or lotions on my face for a few days bcoz i stop using soap or any facial foam but warm water instead coz I'm too lazy and I love it when nothing is on my facial skin.
I was thinking if I have to work I'd like to work at the mall, i can walk to work coz i don't have a license. I'd learnt how to drive once while i was in Thailand but a guy who tauch me was touching my thighs and upper arm and i don't want to jude him as sexual assaulted but i'd take the day he'd call me to have a test is the final, if he call it mean he didn't intent to take advantage of me, but i he didn't call me at all so I'm abit angry but I don't want to take that as a big deal coz at that time there were so many things upset me. so, i don't have a license to drive, it's fine, coz walking is the most precious thing in this country i see some ppl walk too. the wheather is not hot at all but it's colder than winter in Thailand as in summer here.
I am an introvert person so i love my privacy, when i was in bkk i hardly meet ppl coz i love to stay in my burrow and busy with my thought but i've tried to meet friends and relatives as much as i can before left. And i'm glad to hear they are happy and doing good at the moment, I always missed talking to them and sharing our opinions and ideas of live, they will aways in my heart forever. There is nothing as perfect as your imagination but it's always good that you accept ppl who they are and they're accept yours in return aka it's nice to be nice.
I'm still excited of planing thing in each day of what i'm going to do next and as long as food taste good i can live anywhere in this planet and that's how i can say at this moment. I missed all TFers and hope they are doing good and which everyone Merry X' mas and Happy New Year!