Good morning Tfsâ€¦
I havnâ€™t been logging in on TF for sometimes but I keep checking the site every now and then, but only 5 to 10 mins each time, so I hardly log in. I have been living in NZ for 9 months now and I think Iâ€™m doing ok. No home sick but when I see ppl posted food pictures it make me hungry and want to go back ..hehe.. I like many things in this country, its nature and its ppl are very impressive. Working culture & environment is quite different from what I used to in my home but Iâ€™m doing ok here. I arrived nz with my 9 months visitor visa and after 4 months I applied work visa. I got my work visa in late April and I got a job in mid June. I see many kiwi women work like men, I saw a woman drives a big truck and I thought to myself that if they can do hard work and I canâ€¦ too. I went to recruitment agency with my Thai friends on second week of last June and after interviewed I got a job. It was not because Iâ€™m better than my friends but I think Iâ€™m chosen because they like my attitude. I told the interviewer that as I have no work experience here, Iâ€™m ready to take any job to work my way up. Then they gave me a second test paper which I failed half of my test but the agency called and gave me a paper of the corrected answer to rectify those wrong answers on my second test. Iâ€™m grateful that they given me opportunity and Iâ€™m not fail them coz Iâ€™m working as much as I can, which sometimes 60 hrs per week. Even my supervisor at work place kind of like me coz Iâ€™m quiet and do what Iâ€™m told. I almost give up on my first day at work coz it was not only too hard but also numerary and acurary too. Couple weeks past my husband asked me if I still wanted to work coz he hears me keep moaning of sore body everyday, life up & stack up boxes (6.5 kg each box weight) but I told him that Iâ€™m ok. I am a smallest person at the factory and I do what others do, we all work together as a team or family. They think Iâ€™m 25 yrs or younger and when they know my real age, they are acting in disbelieve. Some keep asking what eye cream Iâ€™m using coz she wants to get rid of her wrinkle eyes, I tell her the truth that I use only warm water wash my face in the morning and thatâ€™s it, and no night or day cream at all. Some ask me what size of my bra and they feel my breast too. Iâ€™m bullied by some coz I guess they may thought that Iâ€™m a bad person, having an affair at work but itâ€™s nothing proofed as Iâ€™m having an affair. There is a guy, he seems interested in me but what he can do is only saying but no action have been doneâ€¦and later on when they learned that is not my fault, that guy likes me, since I have done nothing at all. then they are nice to me but still keep an eyes on me & him on coffee break and lunch times, especially when the guy sits next to me.
He seems like a nice guy, tall, blond & slim and he looks like my idol 10 years ago, the boy band called â€œboy zoneâ€œ, (Ronan Keating). I like to look at him coz he remind me of my idol, Iâ€™m not proud of my behavior that when I see a good looking guy on the way I canâ€™t take my eyes of him but this isnâ€™t something new to me, its my nature since I were born. First I talked with Ronan when I worked there a couple weeks he started make a conversation by asking me whatâ€™s my star sign while heâ€™s holding a newspaper on astrology page and then he asked if I have a friend living here to introduce him, I said most of my friends are living in Thailand. He seemed interested on what I said and asked about me & my husband I told him that we have different lifestyle and we are trying to balance our live together., then he offers to take care of me and offer me to give me drive home but I never takeâ€¦. And later on he asked about my visa status and he said once I got resident visa, then divorce my husband, heâ€™ll wait until then. I thought that he was joking so I said, are you going to wait that long? And he said yesâ€¦ and one thing to another our conversation is far more than friends. He gave me a piece of paper and I wonâ€™t tell you what he wrote. He likes nudging me while I was working, sometimes nudge on my upper shoulder but mostly around my elbow area, which my work mate told me that he must be very crazy about me, even some girls are showing their interested in him but he has his condition as someone about his age (heâ€˜s older than me 1 yr) and etcâ€¦. One day I met him at factoryâ€˜s corridor I remember he said to me that â€œwhen I come to work and thinking of meet you here, it makes me want to come to work everydayâ€ Wow! I feel likeâ€¦One day he sits next to me and I couldnâ€™t help to asked him â€œhow come you are not dating?â€ he said he does dating but nothing serious coz he waits for someone special. And when I asked what qualification in a woman are you looking for?. He said someone like me, everything just like me aka copycat. And that what he asking for . I canâ€™t and I donâ€™t introduce my friends to him coz he has his conditions and even if I introduce my friend to him and if it didnâ€™t work out both he & my friend would hate me in the end of the day hehehe. So, it is going to be like this until he found his someone specialâ€¦ I donâ€™t mind ppl keep an eyes on both of us coz I getting used to of it. I wish him find someone special soon coz I wanted to see him a happy man and hearing he says lonely to meâ€¦ is as if I gave him hope. I donâ€™t know what future bring and at this moment I have never thought of divorcing my husband, coz I loved him and still want to take care of him and make him happy no matter what. Sometimes I just feel like god I just live with my husband for short periodâ€¦.
Talking about work place I love my work and I get used to of hard working coz there isnâ€™t me who work hard but all of us too. When I was in Thailand most of my friends call me â€œhard coreâ€ but once Iâ€™m here Iâ€™m just too naÃ¯ve heheheâ€¦in my work place they are quite hard core than I expect and my husband said you woman talk even worse than menâ€¦ I asked my husband one day that â€œ am I pretty?â€ coz some of my work mates said so coz normally I donâ€™t hear this word from same sex and the pretty word is inapplicable to me hahaha, coz since I were remember the first word I heard from my family is ugly and never shared my ugliness to any of my family member, and when I grow up in mid 20â€™s or early 30â€™s my bro kept told me that â€œyouâ€™d never experience what a guyâ€™s thing taste likeâ€ which wasnâ€™t bother me at all and the way that he said Iâ€™m remind him of homoerectus isnâ€™t affected me at all, until I accidentally saw homoerectus on internet not long ago, at first react I saw it, I touch my cheek and asking myself â€˜am I look that ugly?â€. I told my husband that when women say Iâ€™m pretty it makes me feel funny. He then asks me to score 1 to 10 of how I think of my look. I told him that I score myself 5, he said I gave myself lower than he thinksâ€¦Hahaha I am pretty! Ho ho hoâ€¦ I got to go back to my guitar & my key boardâ€¦I have lots of toys at the momentâ€¦I wish everyone have a happy sunshine day!