is fast approaching and for those of us with birthday close to christmas know how much this of year SUCKS to have a birthday in. Mine is the 28th right between Christmass and New years so right between 2 of the biggest holidays in the US. This  means right between everyone having family gatherings, vacations, being hungover and recouping for new years, broke from christmas, suicidal (or maybe homicidal) from spending time with the family ( you know I'm not the only one 555). This year since I am now single since girl I had just started to date.... I haven't heard from in a cpl of weeks since she moved for a job(and women say men don't committ lol). I decided I will just have my birthday on my actual birthday since it falls on a friday and will be same day I test for my next level in Wing Tsun kung fu. So it will either be a congratulations party or symptahy birthday party haha. I will have a birthday party here in the city but not sure where yet. neenyc gave a great suggestion anyone got any? It will be the first year I will not get a birthday card from my grandmother and the standard $25 check (which I have gotten since I was like 7 or something.... I guess inflation doesn't count with birthday gifts 555) The other day while cleaning my room I came across one from a year ago and I stopped for a minute, fighting tears back, I found myself running my fingers over her writing. She had very pretty penmenship (mine sucks) and I suddenly felt.......... well alone. I've been through alot in my life but it was one of the few times I really felt alone. The thoughts of as long as you keep them in your heart they are always with you provided me no comfort in that instance and even thoughts of my friends who I know truly care for me. Plus my web friends who care for me as much as you can for people youu have never met in person, but all this provided no comfort as well. However, this feeling passed and I thne I began to smile at the card and at how she used to write Master Paul H. and the fact that she sent me $25 dollar checks. lol I will miss my friend Yui not being here but hopefully dal3ia will be able to make it. Even thought having birthday's this time of the year sucks because of time constraints and everything the friends you do get to see... are real friends! Everyone be safe and have a great and fun weekend

long journal paul. I'm lazy to read '

ok i'm sorry you are in lonely feel. come and stay with me, you will be even more lonely lol Think it this way Paul, about your birthday. This year my BD is on Sep i dont' even get a present from anyone and it was like this for maybe 10 years. I think you are better than me, at lease you have party. For me not even one recognise my BD except my mom dad sis, but my family don't have any party for me also. but i still fine, Paul , yes feel bored a bit on my BD that it's just another day. But i can have fun another day also. So smile Paul. and HBD ahead.

Lady_K... now you know another reason why I want to move to thailand.. and happy early birthday to you.

X... I'm sorry your birthday was not celebrated more if I'm ever in Thailand or you are in NY around your birthday I PROMISE you a party! If nothing else I promise you a card. deal?

Ipsrite... I would love to have you come to my bday and Merry Christmas to you and everyone also

ok deal and thanks a lot, give me your add i will send you a card too