Today is a sad day for me because I have to let Murphy go...in the past year........ I have lost two people and now I'm going to lose Murphy. It has been almost seven years since I came here and so many things in my life have changed.

Every day I feel something is missing. Maybe it's my soul? Everytime I see someone walk away from my life it brings me back to the cold dark damned place where I was when I was young.

Sometimes I see myself just a body working and I cannot understand why it's pretending to be me? Who am I? What is life really about? It seems so confusing to me all the time. I don't know why sometimes I even do some crazy things.

I'm actually a fake person pretending to be strong, but actually I feel so weak and stupid inside. Who knows and who cares? Maybe life is too complicated for me? I need to find myself again. I can't let the f...uck... bad hormones coming to haunt me again. I must be strong! be bekind I must be...

Do you know what? Maybe if I'm walking in my sleep one night and kill someone and then come back to my bed without remembering anything about it. Well..this was just a bad night. Have you ever pulled yourself backward into the past when you were a childhood? I did and many times found myself alone. SOoo.desolate!:twisted::twisted::twisted::twisted:

let me guess, you are probably in your late twenties or early thirties. maybe this is a point of origin to learn to understand life in the way of being maturity...... and in the next ten years you are probably be the best in many things and when that time come you will be appreciated life more and more and be grateful...... Cheers!

let me guess, you are probably in your late twenties or early thirties. maybe this is a point of origin to learn to understand life in the way of being maturity...... and in the next ten years you are probably be the best in many things and when that time come you will be appreciated life more and more and be grateful...... Cheers!

I'm getting old so probably.. hot flashes, cold! you mean?

too bad I thought so!

It is a chilling thought that you could do something either asleep or under the influence of something and have it ruin the rest of your life.

It is a step to accept realistic world, discovering who we are and what we want and try to reach our goal. I don't say it is sweet but gain and lost is always lurking on our journey as long as we still alive. It is difficult for some because our sweet sixteen path is over and the more you accepted the more you reach attainment and when you reached it, you will be more calmer and more composure (aka endure-ability) to the world of brutality......