I do like him ... I do

I wasn't sure about it, but now I kind of know that

Not cool at all!!

I have never been the one who wait and fall for someone before

All I did was just WAITING for SOMEONE to court me...

it's all new to me...

I always host the game and everything is under my control

For now, i'm in his game...totally

Smiling alone when he just say "Hey!"

Keep waiting and waiting for him .... everyday .... everynight

Just for him to say same thing ... Hey! ...

My rules was "you are a guy, am a girl, you say Hi first, or we don't talk today"

It was my very first rule...

Time change..human change

I am always the one who try to make the conversation funny

and do everything possible to keep his attention...

No matter what and how ... this is weird...

Am jealous when I saw another girls talk to him

No matter how much he said they are just acquaintances

I still feel UNSECURE

And he never know ... or he know, but he never care

Am I someone for him? Or am just nobody?

Just the one to play with when he is lonely

Or the one he feel something deeper with...

Am so confused!

Who am I?

I'm trying to stay away from feeling in love and got to realized about somethings if I need to tell someone about how I feel just to get it out of my head so I gonna have to say it even sometime it doesn't sound right!

hahahaha these feeling are such torturing!!! So that's why am not telling him but write into my blog..

cause it such torture when i gotta keep it with myself...it was like aghhhhhhhhhh!!!! my head is burning..!!

I don't know whether am falling in love or not though...I don't know what am I feeling! hahaha