I know I'm always ruing the fun here? But I also know u people can understand why I sometimes put a journal here abt my brother. That's the way to tell to my dear frinds here how the situation is now, without pm-ing them.

Today I visitid for the first time my brother since he got the news 10 days ago about the terminal cancer (braintumor). A little bit late, but that was agreed with his wife that I wouldn't come from the first week. Too much visitors make him quickly exhausted.

I had some interviews with applicants in the morning in the place where he lives. It's a little bit outside our hometown. So, I could go to work there in the morning and visit my bro in the afternoon.

I was quite nervous meeting him now. And I even had to admit that sometimes some little voice in my brain call me to not go, to look for an excuse. But I didn't want to be a coward and I went to him.

And after all I'm 'happy' I went. Happy is maybe not the right term in this occasion, but I don't find the right word in English.

He's married with an Indonesia women and she is really great and stands by him and help him with with all inconveniences that goes with his illness and medicaments he has to take. He is also strong and still believes in this miracle that can happen. He and his wive r very catholic, a kind of a secte, unlike me. But he only said one time that reading the bible makes him stronger (because he knows I don't like him to talk too much with me abt that). The rest of the time we were chatting abt when we were young (we formed kind of a little group of 3 in our family with 14 childeren) and also chatting abt whatever happens in the world and making jokes.

We made an agreement I will go every week at least 1 time (I think it's possible to arrange with my job). It' still pitty, but it feels fine he can leave in peace and serene and let's hope we can still meet and talk together before he goes.

That's all for now, I'm not gonna put every time a journal. But I wanted to let u know.

Eric

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Eric thanks for your comment,i am really S O R R Y for your brother!!)))

>>>>>>We all never know what happens tomorrow!>> To be alive is everyday a big gift!

Good Luck Eric!! And may God Bless your Bro!

it's journals like yours that motivate and uplift spirits especailly mine to make everyday meaningful

I didn't mean to sound selfish, but people learn from other peoples' experiences and God Bless your bro and your heart

stay strong my friend, .. its good you went to see your bro... ... take care eric.

Glad that you made the visit and that it went so well. Keep doing it!

- Im sorry with what happened to your brother.. and his family..