just few days after my stepdad,,,my cousin frederic(same as me) die in a crash plane,,he has 2 kids and a lovely wife he was 46 years,,,
not a good time for my family,,,live our life every second it s so precious and so fragile
so i asked people to give me a word for the next journal so i cna tell u a story,,but got nothing...well i just got a call from my mom,,,my stepdad is dead,,another victim of alcohol....he was 43,,people,,dont waste ur life with this vicious drug,,u have problems??everybody have,,,i dont drink at all..u go out...u need to get drunk to have fun???i dance without anything just good music..oh i see cute girls..looks so sily when they are drunk,,,can t walk anymore,,,go out with ugly guys or vomit o
today 24 hours day more in my life..people call it birthday so 33 days ago i cried for the first time,,3kg900 and 51 cm,,,thanks mom..33 years old is age that bruce lee never reach,,age of christ death,,will it be age of reason??? i hope tomorrow will be a good day that all i wish,,so more past stories,,it s present now,,,but i d like to give a chance to let u choose the topic u tf members of my next journals suggesting me a word and i ll tell u a story about it...LOVE..an old man
so..i was alone from december to march,,,met some other girl ,,she was lovely but childish,,,so it didnt work,,,,,she was crazy about me..b ut more like addicted,,,,i just feeled it wasn t love..that was my last love story,,,,to be continued,,,,on the 21st february,,,a day like the others
fred
,just before my b day,,just before the date i met her..just before my b day,,just before her b day,,just before the day we lost our virginity together,,just before ,,....
i just got the news that my ex gf is pregnant,,(the belgian korean one see journals..)..i m not the dad for sure..3 years she left me now...strange again it s about same date...i cry now,,,please guys don t say men don t cry...u lie,,man cry,,scare,,,have feelings,,,just u are too macho to say that......
so i didnt lie for her and was angry,,that time she packed her stuffs and asked me to call a taxi..i did it,,,when we were downstairs she saw the taxi,,she ,,u let me go like this??u dont love me anymore???i told her,,i know what u want..same as before ..want to see me kneeing and beg u to stay??enough is enough,,u are the one to leave so,,,,but we can talk she said ...sure,,,but after she saw that she can loose me she was afraid,,but after all this(see journal before) i was so tired to wait her
last night i was dreamins about tfers,,males in their cars waiting at traffic light,,sure it was red,,everybody had expensive car..porsche,,ferrari,,lotus..mercedes,,,,but all in the traffic jam,,and i just pass them with my bicycle,,and at first position ..in fact we all wanted to meet an angel so have to wait green light,,but i passed ,,and police officer caught me and put me in jail ,,and then rape me,,,the police officer was the angel disguised,,,so,,,drive carefully or ahahahah
u what i hate the most ,,is to do same as others do bcz it s like this,,everybody doing this
i hate my b day,,xmas..new year..saint frederic s day, and valentine included,,is not that day u have to show ur love to someone ,,but everyday,,not only that day u have to be gentleman or offer a rose,,if it come from the heart it can be th 4 january or the 23 june..any day..i hate hypocrisy of specials days..and commercial,,,i mean everything is marketing now,,so another 24 hours day is coming soon bu
so after this sad story,,i hurted so much i stayed alone many months,,, and i met someone else..but again,,,,she had someone already,,how to call this...a sponsor ahem,,but she said she loves him ,,,how to love 2 people in same time i never understand it,,well she attracted me,,,she immediately moved to my place..she had no choice in fact room mates moved away and she didnt wanted to stay with parents,,she was very cruel with me because she knew i care her a lot..sometimes we cried together abo
so after she came to see me everyday,,2 hours transportation i really thought she was in love with me send me message came to see me even i have only 2 hours free time for her...she was so sweet,,,but she always told me she s not ready to be my gf because she can forget her ex bf...after a while i understand the word gik(geek)...and to me was weird,,,after the end i found out she lied..still with her bf but he was in england,,and also he wasn t half thai as she said...one day i met her she total
after being a while alone i had a blind date with a friend and her group..really blind coz never saw her pic so.. w e have been to ksr and then she said her friends are inside one of them came at the front door,,,and it was for me ,,love at first sight(it didn thappen many times in my life just twice),,then i talked with her all night ,,dancing...and then i told them i have to go back home midnight coz of working the next day ..she said she go with me outside...and at the dorr she ask me ..do u
so after the crazy jealous i went out with friends,,,we ve been to khaosarn with group of friends but there a farang tried to kiss one of my friend so i protected her,,,but what happened she kissed a farang finally the one who saved her,,,means me ahaha so i stayed with her,,she was a model and a sport girl,i tought finally i found the one but one day one of her friend told me to be careful and dont be too much in love bcz she has many guys...i said i lll find out by myself,,she was good to me
so after the troubles,,,still more problems with this girl,,she call me on my mobile phone asking me what i m doing i said surf the web she asked me to dc coz she wanted to call me at my home number,,so i did turn off the computer but u know line keep busy few seconds..i was on the phone with her 15 minutes..she was yelling at me,,i didn t say anything at all just listen,,after i told her ..u see for 15 seconds or maybe less the line was busy u shout on the phone 15 min...and after few seconds q
so after the first incident,,,2 friends of mine came from belgium after cambodia they came to see me in bangkok,,on the 5th december i decided to go with them to watch muay thai at sanam luang,,that day my gf worked until 6pm so we met her at ksr for dinner around 7 pm,,during afternoon i was teh guide for my friends,,wat phra keo,,wat po,,i knew my thai friends are on holidays so i ve sent the same sms to 5 of my thai friends.."what are u doing today,,do u want to join us at sanam luang.."and i
so(read journal before) i started relationship with this chinese girl..
her family very strict can stay with me...but i met them ..was a bit impress by the dad,,very strict but her mom was ok...
then starts the HELL,,she was sick,,,a real sickness....jealousy..everywhere we go she wanted to kill giirl who looked at me or smiled to me,,she checked my sms before i can read it..can t have a female friend(but before i was single few month so i had some girls as friend),,all of this because a thai
so after what happened to me(read 2 journals before) i tought i can start easy good life ,,,good job,,,in fact when i went to 3 interviews i got the 3 jobs so i had to choose wich one is the best..i took the swimming instructor one coz it was my job in belgium and it was also the best salary,,,like the dreaming job,,but after promises and promises..i saw nothing happened,,,12 000 baths a month..working only once a week,,my boss said have to wait,,after that he said her wife changed her mind,,tha
so 3 weeks after(read the journal before to understand) SHE called me..i was with my best friend having dinner,,she asked me if i called her..and after that also wanted to know about the trip i did in phuket because the job i got at a simmming school allowed me to take some holidays(in fact it was holiday for company too)..i didnt wanted to talk with her a long time(again read the journal..)but i heard another voice so i asked her if she was at home?she said NO i m at my new bf house(after les
so,,i was ready for the next big step..leaving belgium..to start new life here in thailand...just arrived at the airport my gf told me I WANT TO GO BACK HOME...can u imagine that??just arrived we both stopped working in belgium and left everything behind,,i asked her when....?she said right now..so we checked at the company and no seat for the same day ,,have some the next day,,so she has to spent a last night with me,,,i let u guess how was my first day here,,i tried to understand wha t s happ
i was ready to leave belgium forever but have to stay a bit more to sa ve money as i m not from a rich family at all,,so i worked more but also i had enough about tyrannic boss,,and yo yo gf i love u i dont,,all the time..that time i had problems with my balance can t stand up when i closed my eyes i took about 7 month to recover,,doctors can t find anything,,so that time my gf came back to me for the 6th time and i told her that i ll stop working a the pool and go to try to live in thailand an
it s not usual but i want share this joy with others,,my cousin was trained hardly by myself and the result was that he won a fight against a very experienced fighter from russia,,it was a free fight(also called mix martial art...as u can see at ubc..pride ,bushido,or ultimate fighting) the guy was tko..it was only the second fight of my cousin
what a family ahahha... be back soon with my ..not so old..stories
so i came back and again my gf broke me up..some people said they saw her with another guy..after a while she went back to me and again broke my heart...that day i really decide that i m gonna leave belgium and try to stay in thailand..so i started to save money for this ...2 years...and after that guess what she came back again,,,so we decide to go thailand together...but u know even she was asian,,inside herself she was really farang...we made beautiful trip togteher...vietnam ,singapore ,thai
read journal before...here s the sotory goes on,,,so what happened yes tirak?my ex thai gf and best friend contacted me bcz her youg sister disappear,,,after 2 days they got news about her she was in england and she told her family thats she s getting married next week,,,a big shock for the family indeed,,because she ll marry a farang(read journal 26 years old),,,u know i admire this girl ,,,she loved this guy since long time,,they get amrried,,they are very happy now together have kids,,,and th
so in the past year my gf broke me up two times,,,i decided to go back thailand to feel better(was my 4th trip) i started a relationship with a thai girl same age as me,,we were friends since very long time,pen friends 5 years and then met during my first trip in thailand and became very close friend,,,so as she knew me so much and understand where i m from(she knew me when i was very down and very poor...) and so i wanted to make another step with her,,but,,,it s a very traditional girl so we w
working at the pool,,first 2weeks i saw a young kid drawn,,very impressive he was 3 years old,,all the team saved him,,and during my job had a chance to save some people,,it feels great,,but u know most of the time it was open the fridge close teh fridge sit down and do nothing,,very boring job,,,and girls in swimsuit???belgium is not thailand u dont have chance to see a pamela anderson or others good looking girl often,,well guess what my gf left me again ahaha..it wa sin a disco she refused to
so after i lost my illusion about friendship(read part 3 please) i came back belgium and suprised my gf at her school....and what i got??dont even got a kiss..2 days later she told me tat she doesn t have feeling for me at all(before she said she love e so much she wants to marry me and have baby with me) she told one of my friend it s just because i have a good body,,i was so down,,,,so sad,,,but the good news in my life is that i got the job as lifeguard at the pool the same job i refused bcz
