actually from yesterday i have many upset emotion inside me. i know when i'm sad my mind is too busy and many reminding **** in my head. i hate it too i hate to be like this, i don't know how to rest my mind sometime. i use to keep up many friends and told him "jai yen yen" keep it cool blah blahh but til it happend to myself i can't .... hard to breath

u loose my love i just realize that.

today i was thinking about many person i been in love with ... mostly friend. i use to love my friend too much and got hurt too hard. first remembering was from school friend. i lived near by her. after school done i use to go her hosue at evening and done homework together and even sitting there chit chat. finally when we greduated jr. highschool she choose to get with another friend told me lot of lie and give more attention to them. sad sad i never want she treat me same as i done to her but at least be nice and ... wow maybe it my first really heart broken ...

today agian i'm not a little girl no more but ... same **** happend.

i'm put too much my life with friend and it was hurt. i always told my friend "hey talk to me anything specially if it about me i love to hear and change myself to better way" that's all i want ... little sad when i heard my bad part from 'somebody else' that wasn't from my friends. yeah right no one like to heard **** specially about u but as i told my friend just please let me know, i love to hear comment so i can improve myself, sometime I just can't tell myself either how to be good or bad so that why i have friend for but today is ...******* **** day for me i hate it.

maybe it litle better if i stay peace for a while ? take a break from social life? i'm tired of problem ... i know everyone have it but i just can't take care of it and i'm pretty sad for that.

if u have ur kids, make sure u always there when they want u. and u should go for them in the right time, when they want u, when they needed u. not go for fighting, yellin or even comparing ur kid with another it's hurt. when kid can't turn to family the only person they runing to is friends and u have no idea how many **** or 'real friend' out there. less pepople are success for friendship and i'm not the one of that.  also actually today i was thinking of one of my love (not friend). i was so mean to him i missing him a lot but couple time i catch that he have another girl. but everytime when i think of those message and happy time that we laughed together we smile and the way he hugs me was so sad that i loose him. i hope he's fine and alwys best wishes to him i feel lonely ....   i use to look at wall in woman toilet in shamrock often they said

"sad sad is the sadness, it's the man in the black jacket"i'm in my jacket now.

peace to u all

Be strong. You are young, love will find you again.

agree with Damngirl79. no matter what treat yourself well...

I know the feeling of being lonely and no love and problems associated with that,but I wish you all the best and hope in time you will find the good guy for yourself.

I have recovered myself and looking at the beautiful sunsets again as you will one day.

" i feel lonely .... "

who doesn't

Hope you feel better soon! Try to stay possitive, time heals all wounds...

be strong p'sonny.u r cool

Wake up ,u are 24 only !!!!!

What decky people who are 24 can't have problems?????? Sonny you'll be ok lets go get drunk hhahahaha.

I have a few ppl I call them friends..... the more ppl u know, the more problem can be followed.. Im happy with my few friends.. I think its good to be anti social tho'

i better do that like oiy said,

"few friends but they are friends"

thanks for all comment, i'm appreciate on it

Sonny, don't let this **** thing bring you down. If someone you call them "friend" don't think u r "friend" and acted **** too you....then don't give a F**k, they r not your friend anymore. like we talked last night (maybe the sound is too lound), i've been in this kind of situation before....when my friend piss me off, i alway think no body perfect and i try to live with the people who's unperfect.(ask my friend, i hardly to mad with them) But sadly, my patience is not enough...then, i just left. don't even blame somebody else...

and so are u sonny, just act cool and mature True friend is hard to find, but it doesn't mean it's not exist. u have to restart your system. if you r not happy, just leave, don't give a ****. no one can love yourself more than u do...and i couldn't say that our friendship will be forever, but now we r here for you.

big hug to you.

Wish you all the best. I know you appreciate everything your friends do for you but at the end the onw who can really help you is yourself. There is always rainbow after the storm so chin up. Soo soo na ja!

hmm !! be cool.. call me when u have time..

Be Coool.

You still got us.