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It's December!

babyoiy

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I just love this month! It's a happy moment of the year for me! Holidays, Birthday, Christmas and you know parties are await.. Also it's the time to plan what to do next year(this is not really fun to do). Actually I planned earlier that after two years working with my current team I'll make a decision whether to stay or leave. Plus another reason that I'm not a permanent staff. What I told myself was if I can be a good one for this role then I'll stay but I'll leave if I can't be any good because two years time is long enough to show that I might never be any good and I'd try something else. Now it's two years already and I found myself not qualified therefore I shouldn't stay. I always heard from my friends that how crap their job is like, most of the time about their colleagues... For me, I love my job, my team is lovely and I'm enjoy working with them even sometime work is overload. I get along well with my team and my new boss but the problem is I don't think I'm good enough for them. If asking me how much I'd rate myself for this year performance, I say 2 from 5...  yeah, I think I failed! Actually, I could do it better but right now I'm just not qualified in my opinion(lack of responsibility). It will be sad to leave, I don't want to though but it's a condition I made to myself. I'm not yet make up my mind but extended my own probation (I'll judge myself!) for another three months to (finally) prove that I could be the one like I think or not. During this period I will start update my CV. I'm pretty interested in working for a hotel, it should be fun. But right now I will enjoy my December first.. HuaHin anyone? I'll go there the weekend after next week.
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I just love this month! It's a happy moment of the year for me! Holidays, Birthday, Christmas and you know parties are await.. Also it's the time to plan what to do next year(this is not really fun to do). Actually I planned earlier that after two years working with my current team I'll make a decision whether to stay or leave. Plus another reason that I'm not a permanent staff. What I told myself was if I can be a good one for this role then I'll stay but I'll leave if I can't be any good because two years time is long enough to show that I might never be any good and I'd try something else. Now it's two years already and I found myself not qualified therefore I shouldn't stay. I always heard from my friends that how crap their job is like, most of the time about their colleagues... For me, I love my job, my team is lovely and I'm enjoy working with them even sometime work is overload. I get along well with my team and my new boss but the problem is I don't think I'm good enough for them. If asking me how much I'd rate myself for this year performance, I say 2 from 5...  yeah, I think I failed! Actually, I could do it better but right now I'm just not qualified in my opinion(lack of responsibility). It will be sad to leave, I don't want to though but it's a condition I made to myself. I'm not yet make up my mind but extended my own probation (I'll judge myself!) for another three months to (finally) prove that I could be the one like I think or not. During this period I will start update my CV. I'm pretty interested in working for a hotel, it should be fun. But right now I will enjoy my December first.. HuaHin anyone? I'll go there the weekend after next week.
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bigKus

.. I think 2 years working still not enough to prove anything.. as long as you enjoy your working, things went well, you should stay for couple more years.

But i dont know the reason why you evaluated yourself low performance.. change your attitude and make to best out of you.

If you leave low performance you will start anywhere else low.

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babyoiy

Blowing... Yeah my boss will have to do performance review of me soon (within 3 months time that I give myself.) and his comment will be included when I make a final decision..

Lilly... I feel not good that's Im not doing good.. I think my team need someone who is sufficient which I think I can be that person if I try a bit more.

Mywings... Cheer up girl!

Steve... I don't know if you forgot (it seems so) but it's a bit early to say it now..

bigkus... Yeah, I agreed that if I'm enjoy working I should not just quit.. but improvement is needed. That's why Im not yet leave. Apart from I'm happy working for them, they have to be happy with me working for them too.

Definitely, I'll do my best for the next 3 months, I can choose to stay or leave after showing the best out of me. I won't leave with the image of low performance in my mind. I'm not in the position to show responsibility by resign from a company like Chuck Princes... I'm just a baby not one of the Board member. :P

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Kayle

Have you ever discussed it with your boss? You will get another and probably more significant view on how you perform.

There are more reasons than you are not qualified to explain why you haven't been promoted to be a permanent staff. Maybe the company have constraint policy on headcount?

I have read many of your journals and to me I feel that you really enjoy your work, your colleagues and especially your boss. Not many people are lucky enough to feel like that about their job, so dont give up too easily.

Good luck ja!

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GuessWho

doesnt sound like ure not good enough..and from all of your journals (hey i read them na) u have been enthusiastic, responsible and most importantly it always sounds like u love your job..for being good or not good enough you can find out from your bosses and colleagues. if u want to see yourself u need to look into something that can show you your reflection :)

is it just becos ure bored and want to try a new thing??? whatever you feel..choose the thing you really want ja..ull be happy with it.. good luck :)

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babyoiy

Kayle... :) You hear me! About permanent staff, it's about headcount yeah but this is not the main reason, I dont mind to be contract staff like this as long as Im happy and doing good job.. I don't feel good for being not good. I should talk to my boss but he has just been here for 2 months only. But most of all I know myself... I know that I can be better thus that mean now I'm not good enough yet. Sometime I'm lazy.. It's complicated to say it all here but once I feel Im NOT good enough then it's a problem.

My plan, I will wait and see thing in the next 3 months while during this I will do my best... Many thanks for your comment.. Well, others also mean to me but you seem to understand what's going on. Probably your company is also using the same system as mine.

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babyoiy

P'Nu, there are lot of new things to try even at the same place and that's what that always happenes since I join.. I always love to learn new things.. It's fun and is challenging of course.. so boredom is not the reason for sure.

The best is me is loyalty... but when Im thinking that I'm not good enough, I cant stay happily. It's bothering me seriously.

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