Monday 7th of April, 2008

10:50 P.M.

Perfect Time to announce that I'm Dinesh - free !!!!!!!!!!!!

Of course it's such a conflict from what I wrote in my other journal today. But that was just telling you what had happened on Saturday.

I love being his best friend..I love knowing that I am important to him. I love knowing that I am special to him.

But I hate being used emotionally.

As someone that he can always turn back to.

Calling me up in the middle of the night..knowing that I wouldnt be next to any other guy.

Though he called to say good-bye before he left Thailand according to our tradtion....I was so glad but when he deleted all of my wall messages on facebook after I told him that he would make the worst sex partner..or would win the selfish partner award and told him frankly how ignorant he was or how bad he treated me when he was in Bkk this time.

I then realized how much he couldnt see himself hurt but could enjoy when I was teary.

Enough for that..

Friendship stays....but.....if i don't move on...then this never ending circle will keep playing...

Sooner or later, I will find myself lack of energy..stuck in a hopeless place where he wants me around but never ever will take me again.

My promise to run along his side will be there..but I just gotta go somewhere else...will assure that i still have the cornor of my eyes on him..

Called him up but he was busy..so i texted him my decision that has been made since last two months

Said  " I love you...always..but now..I'm moving on "

This time I didn't cry......but I jumped.....jumped....jumped.....and jumped..

till i was exhausted..threw myself on the floor....sighed..got up..and poked my tongue out !!!!!

felt like asking for his permission..but so what???

I'm Dinesh-free !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Good-bye my dearest ex...have fun with ur cricket

Sooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Navie is now just like absolute vodka...( his fav drink..oops )

Just an absolute single right here  

Head Up and MOVE ON !!!  ( FULL SPEED )

p.s. in a day or two....i will break down and cry once I realize what I have just done today...but we had died from one another for almost 2 yrs...that was the worst moment that i thought stop breathing was easier than crying...but it aint this bad this time....im just gonna shed some tears to clean my heart for the brand new beginning..that's all

peace be unto y'all

Good luck finding someone to fill the space left by Dinesh.

We will find someone better for you.

Nave, you deserve somebody who will be 100% dedicated to you; not somebody who is only there for you when it suits is purpose. Good luck findind that person. But in the meantime, do enjoy your freedom...

thanks guys

Posted by Si66bkk [ 8 April 2008 | 7:40AM ]

Yeah just don't look on the net... full of weirdos you know that babe. The girls are nicer here, maybe a profile change?

S

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will remember that Dad..... :P:P