Is God watching !?
Another night wasted, drinking beer and whiskey chasers, looking at cigarette smoke dissolve into thin nothingness and the non-bra wearing waitress. I did this for a couple of hours only to find myself realizing it has been 5 months (to the day) since I was in my close brush with death on the Thai roads...and since my friends will not be there for another couple of hours, I fear you will have to listen to it.
I had been teaching my (girlfriend to be) student German lessons. A friend picked us up and, after dropping her off at her home, we went to get more gas. Exiting the gas station we were hit by a "song tao". I don't remember anything from the crash, only a vague recollection of me on the sidewalk, with a million of people staring at me with a bloody piece of cloth to my aching, bleeding skull before I slipped into my 12 hour unconsciousness. My friend, the crooked Thai cop, later told me all thought me dead in the 10 - 15 cm space that was left of the car seat I was sitting in. I spent the next 3 months in the Phyathai 3 Hospital in BKK, smoking an endless amount of cigarettes, and watching a merciless BKK from the 6th floor, teasing me for not being able to join her. My 2 fractured hips, 3 broken ribs and left collarbone has (somewhat) healed by now, and I'm getting better, day by day,
I wrote off God at a very early stage in my life, 16 or 17, I think, God does not work well with reason. "God Knows" I tried - and I still envy people of faith that believe that s*it happens for a reason! Still at times like this it makes you wonder. I guess the fact that I would have gone to one of the islands in the South and the following tsunami, had I not had my accident, makes me wonder if I would still be alive today had it not been for the things that happened.
I guess my question is: "Have you ever wondered if someone MIGHT be watching ?"
Life: the best movie you will ever see, one run, and a thousand critics!
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...signing off 04:12, pre-dawn light.
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