On 11.11.09 Wednesday I sent out my email to nag & end of relationship with him and that is not satisfied me yet so I start wrote a journal. This took me 20-30 minutes writing and I knew I have to post it shortly after finished before I change my mind. It was my temporary emotional & compulsive. I don’t know what I think that day but tired, headache and tense all day long. 

In the afternoon at 4 PM one of my work friends comes to me:

Friend: Please go with me see a movie.

Me:      you know I’m in a moment of heart breaking and I want to relax at home alone.

Friend: I’m even worse than you, I fight with my husband.

(I look up she look so pale & as if someone who just stops crying not long with eyes blood shod.)

Me:     Oh, ok, what movie do you want to see & where?

Friend: I want to see Rod Fai Fa Ma ha na tuer at Major Ekamai.

Me:     Ok, check schedule and then we go.

While we were walking to Major Ekamai she kept talking about how she fight with her husband, I don’t really get what she said coz I’m in bad mood too, but I kept saying I understand, I understand on the way. 

After movie I saw my friend eyes even worse, she said this movie made she love her husband more. Which I glad to hear, then she stop at the watch shop said she wants to buy one for her husband. I really wanted to say “C’mon, the reason you fight with your husband is over your money shortage”, but I decide to turn my back to her.  

At 7 PM I walked from Ekamai to Prakanong and turn on my mobile, there were miss called and text. It was from Ms. Perfect she would have thought that I probably cry due to my phone is off but I was in a cinema. I want to call my friend but I’m too tired so while I was about to take shower she is calling. She always has an excellent opinions & ideas about things, especially men.  

In the next morning (12.11.09) while I was leaving my apartment to work, there was a call from a friend, Ms. Human Specialist. We share our experience as usual. We talked about how her 3 years long distant relationship not going to somewhere as expected yet but she still can’t get over him. We keep talking until I arrived my office, I was turn on my pc while I’m listening to her love life. And after read email I was burst to tear.

Ms. Human: I know my relationship is sad but you don’t have to cry for me.

Me: No, I don’t cry for you.

Ms. Human:  so what are crying for?

I told my friend that I received an email this morning from a man who I just break up online lol… (make him public to defiant & embarrassed him) I thought he would be disappear forever or reply with gross revenge but I was wrong. He replied & said he deserve it......... I felt bad & guilty of what I’ve done I shouldn’t treat him like this, just send him personal email is enough but I bring him to public.

I was cried like hell, and after 2 hours passed I laugh again with embarrassed & think why I mention about sex in journal since I’ve told him in the first place in our second dated, I still remember what he said” you don’t have to be good as a ***** but just don’t act like a dead log”. 

And in that day afternoon I was being blame by 2 of virgin friends of my childish act.

Maid: see now you are given sermon by the virgins.

Me: I hope you guys don’t mind that I mentioned about you virgin and still be happy in journal.

Friend: well, I thank you for not put our name & last name in your journal.... 

I’m surprised and appreciated of how he responded to my childish act, but think he did well. I knew he was not happy but he didn’t blame me at all. I have to tell him that sometimes I can be as bad as like this…. Anyway I shall leave my previous journal there to remind me of how mean I was.  I know how many sorry & apologized I’ve said it didn’t make me look good, so I think I shall make amend for him…probably something as CiaranM & Condotown  who keep insist me to tune up some skill ..lol…. 

The reason why I don’t …. be honest…is because over ten years ago. A friend called me with angry & disgusted feeling said that “I did BJ my bf and he was release into my mouth, it tastes like MSG + Salt + Chlorine but when I spit off it was his pee”. Since that day I told myself never ever try & do it…lol… And MSG + Chorine + beer. You know what it is!!!  What a tasty & tempting…huh!!! Ã ÃêÒÇèÒáÅéÇ¡ç ¢ÃâªÇËèǹԴ˹Ö觹à äÃèÃÙéã¤Ã¢ÃÃÒàŨѴäËé  ¡ç¤¹ÃѹÃÕ¤ÇÒÃÊÒÃÒöá¤è¹Õé¹Ò Ladies & gentlemen welcome to my suck performance!!!…P.S. next time I’ll try to do my best…..excuse me

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but the clip does not show a BJ

you just gave me some idea m8

but dont think too much darling .... you are my supper girl

Will some gal/gay/katoey tell Soda to just let the "hot yogurt load" paint her tonsils and then swallow without tasting!

.....Or, Soda, if you want to let him share your "pain", just catch his load in your mouth and put it back into his mouth with saliva when you kiss him. (snowballing)

around here the guitar player always gets the groupie!! (girl or guy)

so Soda...get on stage! and you'll sone have to pick and choose!