Last night after work I went to shopping alone for 3 hours to exert my energy of being so extremely happy which I am not use to be like this before. I’ve been through predicament since late 2009 regarding of my visa application and after my wisdom tooth pulled out I found out that a corner of my lips were ripped out cause my flesh inflamed, ulcered and lost appetizer. I was thinking, is my unfortunate or the dentist poor work? I cried most of the day in Jan 2010 which cause me a roll of tissue in each night, in some night two.....

On Feb 15, 2010 I called the embassy said “this isn’t make sense to hold my application for 6 weeks longâ€. A person who in charge is offending profusely that she was so busy at that time and will contact me within two days but she email immediately after I hung up phone not long.

Said:

Dear Khun Soda,

Please submit the following information/documents to help in the assessment of your application and to support your connection with your friend Mr Kiwi M:

- brief explanation of how and when you met and how your friendship has developed.

- evidence of continuous communication between you and your friend during the times you have not been together, from the first time you met early 2009 (e.g., copies of phone bills showing the phone numbers, printouts of emails exchanged, cards, letters, etc).

- evidence of your friend's trips to Thailand (travel stamps in his passport showing Thai arrival and departure stamps)

- evidence of trips overseas made with your friend since early 2009 (travel stamps and visas in your passport and your friend's passport)

- other evidence of your relationship, e.g., photos of you together, with family and friends, on holidays, etc.

- copy of old passport showing travel stamps and visas to other countries

Please post the requested documents by Monday 22 February 2010, and please write the application number on all documents that you submit. Please write any explanation in English.

I email Mr. Kiwi asked if he received and confirm by return, but nothing was replied. I email him again I asked if he can send his passport copy with stamp while he was in BKK but nothing replied. I was waiting and keep emailing in anxious and wanted to know if he could do what I asked because I have to do my part as well until Feb 18, 2010 I can’t take it anymore then I email him:

Hi Mr. Kiwi,

I haven’t heard from you since you called (14.02.10) and I don't know what happen there. I presumed maybe you don't want me to go NZ. its ok, no matter what happen I still want to know you are ok. I will call the embassy and get my passport back.

I understand we are too far to reach each other and our communication is improper it is difficult for both of us. sometimes i dont know what you want and what you think and i dont know what to do it is hard darling. I am bad in relationship so i consider myself being alone & single life is suit me best.

And after email him I posted a JN. Then after 5 mins JN being posted there was a reply from him:

Good Afternoon Soda,

I'm holding off untill I give you good news, but it's been slow coming, Hva ebeen trying to get hold of visa bkk but keep ring at wrong time and when i get through it cuts off, so frustrating...cos i told my boss about using work phone which she said was ok but feel bad about it due to so many cut offs, anyway I wll get back to you later tonight with news, even you are bad in relationship , and i will start a new email trail cos this one is too wide......love uuu xxx

I was crying hard & loud at my desk and one of my colleague standing in front of me (all of them get used to of I crying in the office …) I know she wants to share her anger at her boss with me and lucky because I don’t need to listen to her while I was in tear & running nose, my head cover with tissue papers as if I’m a mummy. When she saw me cried “do u think you are an 18 years old?†said she.

In late afternoon Mr. Kiwi called:

Mr. Kiwi: Hi Soda, How are you?

Me: I’m crying….

He was silent for a second, I guess he didn’t know what to do when he know I was crying, then he explain this and that over how & why it took him so long until he said “I love you, Soda†I was silent for once second and thought this is the first time of my life and it cause me stop crying. Then he speaks to make me laugh…..

You can say I’m ugly or whatever that no one ever said “I love you†before but this is the ugly truth.

On Friday, Feb 19, 2010 I spent time writing brief explanation of friendship developing and printing out our email correspondent and some of my JNs. I know my English is poor but I got to write:

February 19, 2010

To: A. (Ms)

Subject: Brief explanation of how our relationship has developed.

Dear Khun A,

This document is for support evidence of our relationship and evidence for my visa application.

I have met Mr. Kiwi M. on April 17, 2009; actually we have known each other by late of 2008 over one dating website and keep writing to each other as friends once in awhile. And after physical meeting our relationship developed seriously. I impressed and appreciated on what he said he liked me before he met me.

Though we have spend time together for about two weeks on his last trip but it were our great time together. I have written journals of how we met in details, and I named him as Mr. Kiwi in my journals (title I kiss man, Try & etc...), please see enclosed documents and our email correspondents since the day he went back his country.

We have planed together for me to take a trip over NZ since October, 2009 but due to our time off were not matching so we have postpone till this year and also my flight has been postpone forward to March 13, 2010 return on March 28, 2010.

I have a few photos taken together with Mr. Kiwi some are blur and I apologize for some photos do not appropriate to present but this is what I have in hand as I don’t like taking photos much and I didn’t realized I would use these photos as a support evident of my visa ‘s application.

I have lost my previous passport which has Abu Dhabi stamp but I still have flight booking and document that approved by the Abu Dhabi embassy as a business trip, please see as enclosed.

I am looking forward to hearing from you and I hope all document support and some are fax to you by Mr. Kiwi would be sufficient evidence to my visa application.

Best Regards,

Soda Y.

my grammar is poor but hope she would understand what I wrote and at the day I present the documents she called:

To be continue…