dear space...

lastnight it was horrible, the 2nd day that i was on zyban it was...and it kept me wide awake all night. i finally falled asleep at 7 in da morning and had to get up at 10.00!

today is the 3rd day, of course!

i seem to be doing better and my mood is not that swaying except this morning, guess it's bcoz of the lacking of sleep. but since zyban is an anti-depressant drugs so i feel better and better now...

weird thing is that i've been feeling as i am in Montreal. there must be sth in the air and the music i played (and..i dunno!)that triggers me since this morning..the cool wind, sunny day and the walk i had this evening...i was feeling as the sun was ripening my skin. it's a very good feeling i had...

the tickets to europe has been issued but my passport is still missing in Buffalo NYC. and i might have to fly to Ottawa to apply for the UK visa if the timing is too tight. (finger up! was it my mistakes?, do i have money for the trip to Ottawa?)...headache, let me put them on the shelves and i'll deal with them later!

i got some works done today, it's like...spending 3 weeks to have my mind ready enough to just sit down and finish it within 3 hours. life is just like that most of the time...no wonder why my life hasn't gone very far compares with many of you but hey! mom taught me that comparing is not good, my dear! oh well... ; )

so...just let the sun ripen my skin and let me take a peek oh those cute young boys through the gaps of my straw hat, easier that way. : )

atomica

I love it when something triggers a flashback of a great and happy time in my life. In fact, I actually try to identify. A smell (scent of a women), time of day/year, certain songs, umm, I'm digressing here. lol

Anyways, good luck with the passport situation and have a great trip.

"spending 3 weeks to have my mind ready enough to just sit down and finish it within 3 hours."

sounds as though you like to work under pressure. Me too!

Marco