Just wanted to let you guys know that I was able to see my niece yesterday. I was so worried about not being able to handle myself by seeing her in her condition? To wonder, if I wud be strong enough to stomach her pain? To see her, when she really didn't want anyone to see her this way? I was afraid...........

 But my inner fears vanished, as I hugged her, and she smiled when seeing me.  She is much stronger than I ! We talked, and I showed her my latest photo of my gf, and she smiled and said in her breathless tone, Eddie...she's beautiful, and I'm happy for you  She showed the signs of life slowly passing through her body....closing her eyes now and then, dozing a bit here and there, because she was tired and wanted her worried to end soon?

 Her live in companion has been there for her, and I thought he would be tough as usual, but he was totally down and not himself......he told me, he couldn't sleep and it's seems to be so strange to try to realize that the end is near? They've been together for over 30 years as a couple, and their love has been strong. I can't even wonder what he will do, after my niece is gone? I can only hope that his health will remain as good as it's been all these years.

Yes, I feel a bit better this morning, and look forward to seeing my niece again.....I will look for her smile towards me again and hope that she will be able to eat a little more today? I'm feeling relieved about seeing her, and not afaid for seeing myself fall apart in front of her. The weather is suppose to be warmer too, San Francisco is the air-conditioned city by the bay! It's going to be a wonderful day, and I look forward to see my niece again.....it will be a happy time and not really sad, as I imagined yesterday. TF's, thanks for being here for me........

hope she get well soon...everyone is all around her...be strong

Sorry to hear about your niece Eddie. My thoughts and prayers are with her!

Glad to hear her spirit is strong.

is this the reason why you missed out of mistermatwhatever's journal?

I'm here for you, Eddie.

Thanks to everyone for their kind words.

nothing better for her than seeing you happy and living

best wishes eddie

I feel for you afook, I've been there and I know how it feels to see a person you care about fading away knowiing that there's nothing more you or anyone else can do. The important thing is that you could be there for her.