R.I.P.
One of my patients came with history of falling from height 3 days ago. He told me that he worked as a laborer in a constructing site, and he fell from the third floor during working. His friends were there also and they said nothing. From physical examination and x-ray, he had fractures at his forearm and heel. We setted OR schedule to do internal fixation of the forearm today.
This morning during I was doing morning round on the ward, I heard someone screamed. Shortly after that, a nurse came and told me that the patient jumped out from the terrace (the ward is on the fourth floor). She tried to grabbed his leg but she could just reach the pants which were torn in a few seconds. We hurried to the ground floor where he lied unconsciously with some amount of bleeding from his head. After stabilized his spines (neck and back), we sent him to the ER immediately. From the primary survey, he couldn’t breathe by himself so we inserted endotrachial tube to help him breathe. His vital signs was stable after that so we sent him for CT scan which showed comminuted fractures of the skull and massive bleeding in the brain. After consulting the Neurosurgery staff, I had to came back to work on the ward like usual.
The patient died at 10.30 am from brain death.
One thought keeps bothering me … who to blame …
- Nurses for being careless? Isn’t it their responsibility to take good care of the patient?
- The hospital director for not planning some policies to minimize suicidal risk like placing steels at the terrace so nobody can jump out?
- The patient for having so low EQ that he chose the way out from whatever problems he had by committing suicide?
- His friends and family? They should have been close to him the most and told us if he had depression and chance for committing suicide.
- Or it was me …
He told me it was the accident during working that made him fall from height. His friends said nothing. It all sounded logical for me … just another occupational-related accident which happen almost everyday in this area. I didn’t even think there might be any other reason that could make him fall … I didn’t even think it could be a suicidal attempt …
If only I had a clue that he had suicidal risk, I would have warned the nurses to keep their eyes on him all the time. If only I got the right history … if only he told me … if only his friends said something … if only I took a few minutes to think about other causes besides occupational accident …
May you rest in peace. Your doctor is begging for forgiveness …
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