My missing piece ..who are you ?

( WARNING : This journal is quite romantic so you are permitted to throw up later..make sure that you wipe your own mess, k? Also you should picture me as a lovely Lolita blooming at her age of 15 or else this wouldnt work!!)

It was such a night !!

I went to bed at almost one and woke up with tears falling from my both eyes and my body could not help trembling.

I had a sad dream  that I was doing something..something like checking on who's who in my life.

My father was right there, next was my mother, then my siblings..then when it came to the last person in the list..

I felt so strong that he was someone so important, someone who could make my life completed, someone whom I had known so well, someone who loved me....but I had a sense that he was not there and would never be there.

And I began to search and search and search....................................

Just to find that he was not there. That strong feeling told me that I had lost him forever. He would never showed up, he had gone..long gone and didn't care that he left me behind with the missing puzzle in my life !!

Then I could't help crying ! Waiting at where he was supposed to be...looked out nowhere and cried. I had to wake up just to cry and it took me quite a while til I could go back to sleep but this time I was too afraid to get back to the dream land. Afraid that this dream would haunt and hurt me again.

This morning I woke up with a big wet spot on my pillow which I was not sure if that was my tears or my saliva !! Holding the brown teddy bear in my arms ( Yup..I'm a big woman with a teddy bear in bed..wish to be my teddy bear, you can contact my big brother PeeMarc for the application form and a sky kick right in your head if you are a bastard LOL )

Man, it seemed so real. I still remember that moment when that strong feeling invaded me ! I felt that strong love and I felt that big loss.

Who are you and where are you? My missing piece !!

Come and complete me !!!!

Deep.

jing jing..

I can be real deep

Need a hug??

im ok ..need to know who he is LOL

Nave; picturing you as lovely Lolita aged 15 can result in a prison sentence...

btw - thanks for sharing...

Come on Iain..don't you understand my very innocent sense of love ?

Sad dream..!!!!

nave, can understand YOUR innocent sense of love...but ME picturing you as 15 yr old Lolita is NOT innocent...: )