** Recently, I have known that NOT giving up on what you have dreamed for is even harder and a real continuing torture  than persuing things.** I now have gradually developed my hatred for people on my field who are superior and have  power and  rights to judge me based on their preferences .If you want "a certain person"  ,why did you bring me to the competition and gave me fault hope? I hate you indeed! Does that make any senses to you ha? hate you now.I  really relieve now.phewwww,but I will take you down anyway one day soon.

Turing drive/ambition into hatred is a funny thing. "Superior" people wont hire you if you are trying to take them down.lol

Mask it well.

hate is never constructive so let is go

At the recruiting state, they will see you as a future competent "lovely" employee anyway. No need to worry.

@Geee, I know it,but Once in a while when you meet somethings that can't be satisfiled so that feeling happened and I just let myself enjoyed and embraced that moment a bit!!

Even when "superiors" have their choice already made, they need to have others competing so that it will appear to be a legitimate competition--even though it's not. What really sucks is when they choose based on their personal preference rather than on merit. Welcome to the real world, where hatred is sometimes justified. Don't get angry, though; get even!

@Rob you get me