Ok..I was an idiot !!!
But don't you tell me you have no such a habit like checking yourself in a mirror when passing a parked car.
I normally do that and I don't find it's ugly, irritating or annoying. I don't really stop but just turn to take a look of my hair , my make up, my dress ..etc.
I was walking with my friends back from lunch today and yes we were walking pass about 15 cars along the street in my soi..well..you wanna look good and ready before stepping inside the building.
Th
Ok..I just posted a journal but I have been bothered by something.
*COUGH*
I have been coughing for weeks
To be honest, this is the very first time that I find myself coughing this much and this long.
There was one week, that it attacked me when I was falling asleep, I coughed until I threw up and I even woke up in the middle of the night...just to cough !
I have seen doctor, been so strict taking medicine. It got better ..still I cough..eventhough it's less. I am asked to stop taking
How do you know if one worths risking or spending a lot of time with.
I should have posted this as a forum, somehow this thought came into my mind first and I wrote it in my daily diary.
I must say..so many things happened to me lately. My little romance ( hopefully not only 'me' ) , how funny my 2 Exes are in town at the very same time and they both wanted to meet me and even one wanted to…'balance' his life with me again !
But here is what I wonder !!
How do you know if he/she worths
Heck !!!
I made 'someone' upset because of my childish behavior ( believe it or not..i have just discovered that I am childish sometimes though i say im getting old
I woke up this morning with a big huge PRIDE !! that I should not call..I should not say sorry..I should stay silent..I should wait..
But then I asked my heart, do I really want that ?
I had never thought of myself as a prideful person, but had always thought that I could handle it.
But the thought of 'I can put it all tog
How long does it take you to realize or acknowledge your good or bad habits ?
But it took me quite a while until today to realize that ....
1. I'm spoiled and play such a silly mind game
When I get to be with someone that I like, I would turn out to be stupidly weak with no reason, wanting attention for no sense etc. And If I don't get what I want, I would be quiet and throwing tantrums like a little kid..Then I would say sorry for I always think it would be forgiven anyway...but not this
Hung out with my niece 2 days ago and she kind of reminded me of something...
In two weeks, I was attacked with questions that I can't find that answer to myself
Going back to teach and the community again is such an honor and a priviledge to me but seeing those pictures has never been familar to my eyes.
One was the picture of one of my girls holding a tree, surrounded by crowds, but she was hit and yelled at by a woman who wasn't her mother. Just because she saw the girl talking to her b
Someone has already had !!!!
Labelled me with a bit B-I-T-C-H
True..true..true and true that I was.. well not really..but I was a bit big mouth commenting on someone's journal who is maybe known as Dr. Love.
Well..well..well. because I believe that in love there is no such theory. And from reading ( sometimes i even read then skip 2 lines and back to read another line ) and I must admit that I'm the fan ( cuz I just wanna know if its taken from the mags that i have read )
And I must say
I was in a bad trouble last night
But thanks to that hand that held mine and didn't let me go
I was so secure
And how I can throw myself at you
I now understand that feeling when my niece held my hand till she fell asleep
It's that kind of feeling to know that you are with someone, you are protected and you are important
What else do we need more in life
Things come, things go
In the end, all that you want is that hand that will never let you go
and in those arms I knew things would b
My beautiful hectic Monday was destroyed by a call from an unknown person.
I didn't tell you guys ( well I don't think you need to know cuz it's not a big deal though ) that last Friday I went to have lunch with my first ex whom I had lost contact for 9 years. I don't wanna talk about how messy it was when he left or how bullshit it was. But it was good that we could talk again and I didn't need to know anymore about why we really had to break up or so. It has been too long to pull that memory
I have been SICK !!!
This damn flu doesn't wanna let go off me easily which I don't understand why cuz I seem to wear more pieces of night clothes than when I was all fine.
And I'm so bored when I had nothing to do on such a nice Sunday like this but sat and slept. Been walking around my house with that gel bag on my forehead.Had watched every DVD that i've ever had even ones that I labelled 'boring'
Now call me names but I'm not that shallow tho I'm not that deep.
I watched all music vdo
Time to label me with names again !
At least a friend of mine already did.
Met with one of my girls from Jr. High last weekend for her birthday dinner.
What else the topic could be for a person who has just turned 29 and that 3-0 numbers are coming too soon.
Work-Love-Marriage-Life
One of my girls is having a hard time now because she has been talking to many guys and that could put the friendship with the rest of us to an end.
I gotta be honest when she asked me if it was wrong tal
I count it a problem. My problem and I have tried so hard to fix it.
I even put it in my New Year resolutions or even Thai New Year!!!
I just can't follow the (damn) door sign !!!!!!
Instead of 'push' I pull ! then i would be grumpy about myself that I did it again !
I know its freakingly insane or I'm freakingly insane. But how much I wanna fix it. Maybe it's about doing what I'm told. I love uniqueness and I know I have a mind of my own. But this has nothing to do with 'push' and 'pull' s
My mother is very easy to read. She's pretty much like me ( actually I should say I'm pretty much like her )
We stay silent when things go wrong, when being pushed, when angry, when gaining pressure until we are fine with ourselves then the lips are about to open.
When I posted a journal about Mother's day, I meant to write this too perhaps I, myself not really happy about it.
My brother, my sis and I brought her the flowers and went to her all at once.
Then...the sermon began
Not much for
My niece turns 3 years old today !!
3 years old !!
She talks alot, she runs around, she plays nonstop, she wants to know every single things !! She learns to love me and praise me..kisses me and hugs me before she asks for something!! wicked !!!!!!!
And she is just adorable !!!!!!
I'm happy that she's not getting bigger (side way ) and is able to wear that orange jacket that I got her from last Thanksgiving.
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Happy Birthday to my lil niece
Mom ? or that man ?
Finally my mother won !! I cleared up my thought about that Mr. X ( Prime Minister ) and decided to take my mother to King Rama II park in my hometown; Samutsongkram.
My mother loves flowers. And we knew that would make her happy. Being silly as we always are, we walked around that small park, taking pics of mom with flowers and my sis in her graduation gown. Yeah..we did look as if we were insane..but well...as long as my mom's happy..No worries about other people.
She j
I have had this man in my thought since yesterday. At the same time I was thinking of my mother as well about where should I take her or anything fun to do with her.
I was trying so hard not to think about him....and tried to focus on my mom instead.
Even now....the truth that Mr. X (Prime Minister) is now in England, still runs in my head and makes me wonder why.
Anyway, not much to do today...just here to visit my mom..doing nothing but rolling on the floor in the living room watching TV, a
Ahhh...
I normally don't do this.
This is only unusual because it's special.
I gathered my staff to decorate the hall for the up coming Mother's day. Flowers, leaves and etc.
And we were having so much fun that she thought I might look cute with flowers on my head !!
Maybe !!
I have tried that and loved it. But back at that time I had my long hair.
Since I had my hair cut real short, never once that I thought I would look cute with flowers. So we tried it.
When it was about 10 at nig
Not me !!
I am so sick and tired of my own soi or even the next soi.
NO FOOD !! NOTHING INTERESTING !
As I walked out of my office for lunch, I saw an army of hungry salary people walking all the way down to the end of the Soi. Then when I turned the other way, I saw no less crowd walking out to the next Soi. Where could I be ?
The other day, I saw the girl in my office eating instant noodle.
Now..that's the perfect choice !!!!!!!!!!! (forget about delivery or driving out to new places.
My top superior highest boss came up with an idea !!!
a very intensive "self defence class" by himself.
I know it has become a tredition, custom, way of living or whatever for me to be pretty much about everywhere and everytime for company events, parties, retreats whatever.
Being one of the very first few employees, I have learned and absorbed this company's culture, morever I have created some. So seeing me here and there is nothing new for them, and they found that its quite supportive
Dear folks and flocks,
When I was just a little Navie girl, I gotta change my favorite color from 'pink' to 'red' just because I was a taller girl than another girl when we were playing '5 colors power rangers'
I kinda wondered why a tall girl couldnt be 'pink ranger' but all the boys said because I was tall and it wouldn't look cute so let the other girl be it !!!
So I fooled myself to like 'red' instead and maybe it's the closet to pink that I could come up at that time. Then people h
Some people thought i was on drug last night for flying to the moon and back but I guess that can easily (maybe to me) be interpreted that ...I had something good..and then it was not that good.
Another word...somebody moved my cheese !!!!
But one good thing came out of it and it has always been good though. I rang my best friend last night, wanted to talk but he did not pick up. It has always been like this..the dude will disappear if he's dating someone.
It took me 2 calls to realize t
Once I felt so high and in a sudden...here I am again..back on earth where there's no big beautiful playful rabbit as on the moon.
Nothing more..nothing less
but
it hurts !!!!
If my memory is right, DiCaprio as Jack Dawson said that in the movie Titanic.
How I loved my last weekend at Rayong for the Staff Retreat
Time to be with my folks without work and time to be with myself
Went for a walk at the beach on a cloudy day, staring at the waves and this line came up into my mind "A woman's heart is a deep ocean of secrets."
Why did Mr. Dawson say that?
Actually, it was not only from Titanic movie that I have heard
People, men many times say that a women's
Ugly duckling ??
Those swans call me that !
I am in touch with my girls from junior high again and my ladies are still like yesterday; gorgeous.
Easy to be seen that I'm the only one who has gained weight and seems holding it so dear and afraid to lose some. We normally get to meet once every two months and keep our friendship alive through MSN messenger.
Just yesterday, that one of them gave a comment about my life.
"Being an ugly duckling like you is actually good." (à »ç¹ÅÙ¡Ã
