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allow me to go soft a little, if you don't mind.

we are not quite finished here.

that's normal for every breaking up couple, i guess

especially when it happens in a sudden.

my wonderful mom called me this morning and said to me that i must love myself more and if no one cares, i'll always have her and our family to love and care for me...she said that she did not raise me up just for having someone else to hurt me.

i told her that it's not only his fault, it's for both. we are both independent and have our own lives and our own perspective. there's nothing wrong if two persons who love and care for each other so much will not be able to be together.

but yes, it hurts more this way...

i owe you guys a big apology, as i've changed a lot and have become a boring person. many TFers have complained that to me.

thank you all...esp. Craig, Ling and 2unique

anyway, let me sing...

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Where you are seems to be

As far as an eternity

Outstretched arms open hearts

And if it never ends then when do we start?

I'll never leave you behind

Or treat you unkind

I know you understand

And with a tear in my eye

Give me the sweetest goodbye

That I ever did receive

Pushing forward and arching back

Bring me closer to heart attack

Say goodbye and just fly away

When you comeback

I have nothing to say

How does it feel to know that you will always be alone

When you get home

There must be someplace here that only you and I could go

So I can show you how I

Dream away everyday

Try so hard to disregard

The rhythm of the rain that drops

And coincides with the beating of my heart

I'll never leave you behind

Or treat you unkind

I know you understand

And with a tear in my eye

Give me the sweetest goodbye

That I ever did receive

Pushing forward and arching back

Bring me closer to heart attack

Say goodbye and just fly away

When you comeback

I have nothing to say

How does it feel to know that you will always be alone

When you get home

There must be someplace here that only you and I could go

So I can show you how I feel

Pii Jane...

Here it is .... H U G ssssssssssssssssssss ka.

Don't know what to say but totally understand yr feeling naka.

Cheers ka.

Nu Gin :'(

Group hug!!!

damn now I feel like I'm in an AA meeting

Its not easy but am sure you will move on... Am always here for you and your mom is right you should love yourself first.. take care na..

time is the best healer, good wishes for u

go to bed n'Jane, you're *still* awake

For P:Jane....

"I found out that the things that hurt us the most can become

the fuel and the catalyst that propel us toward our destiny.

It will either make you bitter or it will make you better."

J & Roses