Damn....

This is probably..the moment that I miss my old navy the most!!!!!

Whenever he says..you are my girl...and you gotta be tough like me!

Surely dad..I have learnt that and I have done that.

He named me after his career..Navie..so definitely not 'naive'..

It seems recently..i have hidden my cold character somewhere and have allowed my true sensitive self to do all the work.

And it's not working at all.

I have found tear drops after not having it for years as soon as I sensed that I have made that mistake.

I had that big grin on my face since i have known this person but now it's been removed.

Trying so hard to figure out what has gone wrong with me and wonder where have I dropped my shield or why haven't I hidden myself in the stronghold as always.

Why did I allowed myself to get attacked by those feelings.

I have built this tough character for years and this is probably the very first time after two years of break up..that I allow this weakness to happen. It shouldn't be a big issue if it isn't because i havent felt like this for years.

And i found myself sat and cried not because of what i have done but because of what i have felt.

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for a moment like this..

I wish I could have my microphone in front of me with the back up band in the back..

and I want to sing from the top of my lung to chase those tears away.

I'm trying to memorize my own quote now..

Head Up and MOVE ON !!

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Oh O, my Nave cry.

CRY HARD and MAKE SURE you do it GOOD!!

Hope you had a good cry.

and I will cheering you up!!

(P.S. Don't kiss me)

ha ha thanks .....its ok..Secretsazngirl always wanna kiss me LOL

oh, another teary eye jerker.................just forget any bad memories and remember the good ones..........you'll be okay.........

Well it's very courageous of you to speak open about your feelings! Just be aware that whenever one feels moody, it feels like you're the only one in this world with this condition - but you're not! There are billions out there suffering from broken hearts, a poor life, loss of family members, getting hit by serious disease etc. So think about this and ask yourself how bad your situation really is...and things usually change after a good sleep or two, suddenly one can see some light where there was absolutely darkness before...

Also, if you want the spiritual aspect...a personal crisis is a sign of development of the personality. When you feel bad, you're forced to think a lot of thoughts again and again, and however painful it is, you'll come out on the other side with a more mature understanding of life...well I can't promise, but I presume :-)

Good luck! :-)

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i got it! i was so confused by your other journal!

hmm milkcoconut, who is this person? must be your secret enemy................... otherwise your arse hole has finally learned how to speak!

.... or learned how to 'type' ......for this matter.......

you can put as many wall up to protect yourself, but eventually something happens and they come down for a bit