Misery is such a mysterious place.
?Like - it?s (supposed to be) so wrong to be there, but every time I?m there I feel like I?m in my old home... Gloomy but cozy? dark but safe... Silent enough I can hear my head babbling.
A lot of times some of us automatically turn our negativity positive. I?m not sure if all of us do? but I assume there?s a few. Things we want, we say we don?t need ? just because we never had it. Things we hate we pretend to like? Just to cover up the bleed.
These days
~ i got my nose pierced ~ i got my nose pierced! ~
Inspired after squeezing a spot on my nose one day and it started to bleed and i thought it looked pretty kool...
So i just went out and got my nose pierced *but* the person who did it didn't pierce exactly where i wanted it to be...*SIGH*
I want it to be (according to the pic...) about 2mm more to the left. (She was even gonna do it even further out but i stopped her @_@~!!)
Problem is.... i feel the need to either take it out and start a
2005?. The generation where men ***** and women bark?
Having one of those men hatred syndrome at the moment? God knows why! Anything they say makes me wanna crap on them! Even my customers, both favorite and non-favorite ones!
Thanks to frankenburner for lending me his body to smack last night? Any volunteers for tonight ? welcome.
So I was saying to my client? ?My brain can?t think today?? (Meaning, you can stop babbling now so I can concentrate on my work?.)
If I work, talk, think, list
Well, while Oiy got her first job this month? Skaty and I will be broke. This is the first month I?m getting such lowww pay? Plus spending too much last month doesn?t look like it came to any beneficial result!
?Though, if I keep narrating the journal is gonna be four pages long? So I?m gonna write it in a script version?
THURSDAY:
Mystique ladies night ((: the target for all broke people!))
))2 pm: Phone call from Skate((
Skate: hey, what?s up
Pam: hmmm? nothing much, still going out ton
Random rashes on my body? April allergy I assumed ? But it?s not April anymore!! WTF!
Who says I don?t have a heart! I can still feel it throbbing severely as if it?s gonna pierce through my skin! Only happens after certain alcohol therapy (intake) -off course?
First day of the month and my staff didn?t turn up for work? Sudden negativity emerged >>I think she quit without telling me! (typical village girl thing)>> So I went to her drawers and found that it was unusually clean!
I'm starting to recall all my previous relationships and crushes i had through out 25 years and 3 months and 28 days of living.... Putting a confirmation to the analysis i made a few years back.... I'm CuRsEd bloody hell CuRsEd!!!
First crush... 12 years old.... Me, got back to school after spending the whole school holiday with my parents in Singapore - to find out my very very first crush has left thailand to continue his studies in the states....
Second crush.... 13 years old... I was in
....bored.....!!
anyone knows if theres a place where u can go get drunk... have fights with random strangers... without getting killed (just yet) ... without getting arrested.....without hospitalizing myself (still want to come back to work the next day.....) where there's a live band that sing parental advisory types of music?
maaaaannnnnn ......... !!!!!
Woke up with TOO MANY random pictures of *almost* random strangers in my camera. What a night!! The only two people I know seems to be Yellowsub' and Anny. Whoever wanna claim your pics.... Msg me and clarify yourself! 'Cos I'm not doing the (global) online album thingee... too lazy.
I love being soooo drunk and having someone even drunker than me to laugh at! Thanks to .... who ever that was... for being so f* drunk, u really made my night! hihihihihihe...
Anywa
2:04 am?.. Looks peacefully black outside. I really feel like going out for a walk and see what I might come across. Then I?d sit? drink ? and sigh?. Otherwise, sitting in here I?d probably want to smash this whole place down! (Which I know I can?t and maybe that?s why it?s frustrating!!)
Though I?ve been counting down for the holiday to be over?. I?m still generally not counting down for tomorrow morning to arrive just yet. It?s just gonna be another annoying morning where my first client is g
It?s my last day in civilization before Songkran Holiday strikes. My mom has already fooled me to go help her clear out some books at my grandpa?s house. She was like, ?Pam? are you working on the 12th?? I said, No. She goes, ?I?m planning to go sort out the books at grandpa?s? Are you coming along?? I was like, ?? Yeh?
---------- DUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! It?s my longest THREE days holiday EVER!! and mom?s gonna destroy it by making me clean!?!? N A S T Y!!!!
Guess who just gave me a surprise visi
My attention is like a piece of sponge, ready to absorb what?s being offered and then start dripping by such simple clutches!
Too much tension will only make it drip faster. And as the last squeeze of effort drained? It?s SO drained! As simple as that!!
People always forget the shits they do or say too easily. Thanks to the modern technology ? I?ll have the evidence to present in the courthouse and walk away guilt free. Deep deep deep very deep down I can feel a dim guilt wanting to emerge th
Is it God's curse or Satan's Blessing....?
Like something is there but it's not there... But what's not there that's there???
I don't normally THINK - But my brain likes to babble on it's own. And this is what it's babbling at the moment...
Yearssss ago, i went to a fun park and had too many Roller Coaster rides - I was on it back and forth and back and forth 'cus I LOVED the moment you're up side down! It looked like you're standing on the sky!! Extremely a thrilling sensation I'll tell ya
My mom?s cat, ChaCha? He must be living around women too much and got de-sexed too early? or something ? he?s obviously confused with his gender! Every morning ? a five months old kitten that lives in the compound would come calling for him to go out and she?d suck onto his nipple!
Somehow?I told the story to my client and she goes, Are you sure they?re just not trying to be kinky? LoL ~ Kinky Kitkats??!?!
Well? Skippy didn?t want to be peanut butter but prefer us to call him ?Chrispy? instea
Ok.... Now that I partially officially got transformed into a canned product.... I'm gonna turn a *Wampire* into something edible too... Well....Skippy - Skippopo... I'm gonna call you SKippy from now on... hehe.... Just be sure you don't mix Skippy and Spam... ... won't taste good lol...
Sorry to all - I really got no time to reply to comments in my journals lately. But thanks for all your comments!!
Needless to say - no time to answer msgs one by one either...SO I"m gonna roughly reply in
I?m a cheap doll with a ?made in china? stamp on my butt. If you don?t like bad quality products then don?t buy me - that is your problem really.
Rolling downhill? getting distracted by bits and pieces of achievable/possible reality! - And when life is a hectic? ?peacefulness? feels really tempting!!
So common-sense wise: You finally found a room you wanted? But it came with four judgmental walls where you get verbally sliced for every inch you move ? First you try not to move ? cus you wa
Ps :|: I'm drunk - but i'm gonna work on typing properly this time....
SAy .... My place looks like a giant rubbish tin! I started off wanting to just shift my room (somewhat, an office) ...but now seems like the whole bloody place is a mess~!!!!!
thought i'd fill m e up with some alc - for motivation - well .... seems like it's only making me fall asleep!
Im gonna dump all the mess into one room and cont. tomorrow ... thou - i told WInny to wake me up at 3 AM and I'm gonna try to focus from
I just made a statement a few days ago ? that I must be some sort of satellite dish? attracting weirdoes and psychos. A couple of days ago ? I realized I?m also a broke-people Magnet!
I just gave one of my Psychos a new name today? ?Skin Psycho? it is.
(Not sure if I?m allowed to name names, so I?ll keep it confidential.)
Now Skin Psycho ? What she did ((long ago)) was peeled off her bf?s skin and pasted it in her diary. --- Well, that?s bloody freaky! (She also had a collection of ?skin in
Hey Noochy, Bowling, May, Cherry, Ris, and ((off course)) Oiy, hehe...
Thanks for turnng up today u lovely peeps! Sorry ~ no time to chat with u gals - Hey ~ Noochie, how come your sis left so quick?
Anyways ... Will catch up next time, k?
Too bad i didn't get to watch Noochy and Filu' do the posing!!! I'll catch up with the photo results then. ((plus too bad i didnt get to take any of your pics)) - i think Otto forgot he was there to teach me!! >_< (well, i (think i) learned a fair
I killed a SNAIL stepping on it bare foot. ~ It felt really saddening and well? Yucky! The problem though, is that ? I don?t know if the whole scene was real (under my vague soberness) - or just a dream pure dream!!!
I had the most bizarre dream last night. I saw spirits (in term of ghosts)? Then a friend of mine DIED!!! ~ and I was crying the **** out of it!! Then in the dream ? I died too (soon after)! ? But then the dream skipped to something else (can?t remember) ? Then the spirit of my (de
Worse than getting a dodgy msg from a 40 yr old++ Humpty Dumpty saying, "Hi OutOfOrder...Can I Order You Out?" would be this.....
Hi,
I will be living in BKK soon, but only part time. I will be getting nice apartment and looking for a girlfriend to stay with me and stay in apartment when I am gone to USA. If you might be interested in getting to know me please contact me.
This person sent me msg several times already and i never replied. Not just that the messages so bloody lame.... He's SOOO
Too much motivation inside effortless body? I?m not in a chump today but I feel like doing lots and lots of productive works!
Though, body and mind not co-operating? My brain is thinking too fast ? Like the verve running too rapidly and I can?t catch any to actually start focusing on one! Omg! ? my body feels like it hasn?t got enough energy to catch up with my thoughts today!! Time is running wild again!!!
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Winny asked: Don't go out? How come?
Here's why....
My drinks taste better (& I can pour as much alcohol I like).
My music sounds better(no hip hop... that's for sure!)
and then,
My computer screen is cuter then all the blokes out there times(x)10!
why should i go out then? i got all i need in my cave!
