Here's what i (occasionally) wish hard for my shitty life....

...That a doctor would detect me with some liver or lungs or heart

(incurable) disease and tell me that i only have like....2-3 more years to live...

So i can use up half of my savings to travel to a few countries...The last place i want it to be a desert somewhere. (I wanted this since i was about 17 years old...) I'm gonna keep writing a diary until my body dehydrates and die... Then someone will find my diary in the sand and make a good usage outta it. (paper mache... maybe...)

So, according to the lifespan economization technique... and the awful family genes.. I have high tendency to catch something. That's the only thing i appreciate outta my ancestors... Guiltless death..

There're plan B,C,D,E.... but i'm too lazy to type!

Good day...everyine!

You really don't want to end up in the desert. it totally sux. how about in a life boat at sea?

lifespan economization techinque.... drink lots of booze...(worst would be vodka+redbull) sleep very little... overdose pills unnescessarily...eat unhealthy food...don't drink enuff water.... etc etc........

boat... i thought of that... and i like seafood too... but i'm scared of touching big fish... and i can't cook live animals... and my diary will be sinking into the bottom of the ocean...words smudged and paper cant even be used for paper mache.....

oh, don't forget... my name is still lala...

Life : Sun goes Up....... Sun goes Down............... there you go...

I am asking myself very often... well, almost everytime when I look up to the Sky & the stars....

Why am I here in this world ? ...

What is the point of living life ?.....

Its NOT that I am not happy with my life.... I am as happy as I possibly could...

But...

Me wonders... what is the point....

I dont mean I am a bitter and I deperately want to die....

BUT...

Honestly, I am not afraid of dying......... I could die now.... really.

I personally think that...

Its better to die than to live a terribly miserable life... as simple as that...

WeLL... again... Me is babbling.... as ususal...

~*P' RiYa*~

LaLa Jaaa....

-Off ToPiC-

Me wonders.....

Have you got a new -dress- for your BD party yet ???

<Well, it would be NiCE if you would write about it...... I always love reading your journals to BiTs... Jing Jing Na Jaaa... Me is a Big FaN ... BiG-BiGGer-BiGGesT >

WinK*WinK*WinK

~*P' Riya*~

--->>> ViGGoP

What is a Dot ???

< You start it first.... hehehe ... Me is like a 5 years old girl... I can never stop asking -Q- if I really want to know the answer... WinK>

~*RiYa*~

LaLa,

ever hear "Life Is ****" by the Dead Milkmen? i could b persuaded 2 burn some "Life Sux (but maybe just a big cozmik joke)" songs on a cd 4 ur party.

Hi Lala, glad to hear from you again. Hope you're ok now... Have a nice day ^*.*^

layla, you like the desert??? wow, have i got a deal for you.....how about you come here and i'll go to thailand. yessssssss. sounds great to me. its a win/win situation. you love the desert (lots of that here) and i love living in a normal place (can thailand be counted as normal? semi-normal? more normal than here?)

and what a bargain you will get, no need to buy the latest clothes/fashion/hairstyling/makeup cos you can see jackshit of women once they have their abaya and veil thing (whatever its called) on, just the cute little eyes peering out and their cute little ankles and hands. BTW, i am easily aroused by women these days, as soon as i see a bit of a womans flesh, could be hands, could be a nose, anything with real flesh, pow, instant erection. think of the men you could pull here just by a quick flash of an ankle or naked hand. and to do this, you didn't have to get any body parts peirced, a wild hairstyle, fancy perfume, **** hanging out. oh god, i wish i was a woman, i could be filthy rich here.

have i convinced you to trade places?????c'mon pam/lala/layla, you will love it. it will be a big win for you.

don't worry... my life is cursed... I'm gonna be living till 199 years old.. and still wishing....!

"The" ????

~and i thought u would come up with a more stylish name (eg:goat) .... I'll be analyzing the footpath.. inch by inch... very soon...

........... which plan am I mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ......................... z?