Always on time
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...Never too late..never too soon..only if you stay silent then you will know when it comes to you. When 'that love' is not in my hand and the hand that I wish it would never let go is kind of far...Still, I think love is beautiful..for its not about winning or losing. But its just to love with no requirement nor argument. So I am still in love eventhough I won't call it mine. But I am in love with 'love' because no matter which side I turn..I see nothing but its beauty.Even I had that thought, still I felt a bit lonely inside.Until I walked into my classroom, and my 6 years old boy walked to me and gave me a hug. A not so tall boy like him could only reach to my waist and buried his face there."Miss Nave, where were you last week? I miss you"For about one minute that the boy was there, the iceberg deep inside of my heart was melt away.Always on time !! Seems like someone up above knows what i need and when I need the most.It was not so much, but I was about to cry ... Remember what a mother says to comfort a child " Mommy is here, baby" "¤ÃÙÃÂÙè¹ÕèáÅéǤèÃ" (I'm here my dear) and how i was trying hard not to cry.And that became the source of strength for my very weary day confronting students and customers...............
On my very short time off on Koh Sri Chang. I found this little girl playing by herself when her sister and the farang boyfriend were having a good time. I couldn't help playing with her and led her to some fun called 'Sand Castle building'..not so long until I attracted two more boys.I was so relieved and relaxed. When did I really leave or put my soul aside. When did I allow this new marketing thing to invade me. How happy I was working with kids and with some kind of belief that I could give them something better and even a belief that they will grow up and create something better for others. I met a very nice and cool lady from the healing house who leads kids to do activities on weekends and it reminded me so much when i was so devoted to them..my passion..my life and my whole heart for them. Until this whole idea of the professional business person has turned me and has eaten my perspective. How aggressive I have become. From talking to her and playing with the kids, I grabbed that chance to pull myself back when my leash was about to be torn and I was about to be blown away too far.---------------------------With the boy's hug today..my whole heart was filled with love once again. And it confirms me more..that I don't need to fall in love with someone..I just need to fall in love with love..and that should be enough.Because it has never left me alone. Because it always comes on time..when I'm down..when I'm sad..when I lose myself..I will always find that there will be a little hand reaches out to pull me back to where and who I really am.And tell me how loved I truely am !
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