Last Friday it was Rob’s party; I was excited and ran around exchanged hugging with TFs. An hour later my girl friend shown up with her painted finger nails in red and told me that she didn’t know where’s the party’s location, so while she was walking on Sukhumvit soi 4 she saw Don (condotown) she then hand beckoned him but he shaken his head to give her a sign that “no, I’m not take any prostitute hereâ€. She disappointed and telling me that even if she worked there she would not chose him as her customer because scared. I over heard some girls said so but to me he is cute and unique handsome, his enormous round eyes situated lower than his eye socket level and together with his gaunt face, he’d reminds you of the malnutrition children in Somalia camp. Anyway, several years ago I was misunderstood him because I’d heard some said he is a “virginity taker†but when I have an opportunity to meet him in an event I immediately asked and he was burst to laugh before say “yes, I am a virginity taker, any girl here want to lost virginity?†then I knew he was not..... So after that I’d looked at his profile which he wrote in Thai as “I am an undertaker†that makes sense to me and more close to reality rather than a virginity taker.

I like the guy even I don’t know him well but I think he is a direct talker, no illusion and doesn’t mean he is impolite. For a grown up like me I like people who speak their mind rather who speak a flower language just to attempt to get in between my legs…hehe….I think the guy like him probably likes a girl like me…lol….why? A girl who could make him feel like he is a king and he is everything to her. Comfort and support but the most important thing is who’s sincere and honest……. I think I saw some TF guys who have same desire as him, even they don’t speak out their mind but if you have had eyes contact with them, you probably see. C’mon girls, let go hunt! And good luck!

In last March my cousin come to live with me temporary in BKK to do her personal business and I must say we can be meant to each other sometimes, probably we are too close. And what she said to me is “I can’t believe a girl like you would be married because you are so weird and abnormal, who would gona marry you, unless you used black magic or exorcist to get a man marry youâ€. I didn’t say much at her first mention but after twice mention I say “well, here I am, a married womanâ€â€¦lol….. I must say that my relationship before married we had spent time so little and it is too risk for both of us to decide to marry but if he didn’t….I probably a stray…..

On last Friday evening while I was walking after Ms. V to attend the party, we were make a conversation along..

Ms.V. I’m so jealous that someone doesn’t have to work because her husband sends her money.

Me: who? Me? No, no, my husband doesn’t send me money. I spend my saving but if I don’t have….I will ask for it.

Ms. V. sometime money is not important when you are really in love with someone.

Me. As I said if I don’t have I will ask for it but I don’t need to. To me money is important but not the most important.

I live my life simply and if it’s not necessary I don’t use my money, I’ve learned something else is more valuable than money. On weekday, I always open my door to let the wind blowing in my room and I don’t turn on a neon light at night unless I go out and back late because it helps me save and it helps the world safe energy too. I prefer to walk up and down the ladders rather than use a lift at my apartment if I’m not carrying things. It is not only helping the world saving energy but I love exercise too and it’s a by product. I don’t buy cloths anymore; the last time I bought it was 3-4 months ago. I bought 4 t-shirt it cost THB 29 each. And now I’m gaining weight and some of my cloths are unfit anymore but some that used to be large to me is now fitted, and my cousin gave me 2 pants because they are too tight for her but its fit me well. Most of my spending is on food I don’t mind its price because I love fresh food but sometimes I eat expired food because I’m too lazy to go out buying so I got food poison and diarrhea once in awhile. My neighboring is a camp of construction workers and they annoyed neighbor at night, they drunk and fighting and stab each other to dead. My friends said you can afford a better and nicer apartment than this but my answer is short and precise “you know, I am a frugalâ€

I’ve been talking to two of my friends who have high confidence of how to make men fall……I must say that even if they are single, but this status is gone in no time. They happen to tell me that their “best bj performing is in the package†and one of both told me that her ex always obsess about her commanding which keep him alive every time he thinking about it. You know, these women are really proud of their performing and I think they deserve it. Both of them told me the same thing that “don’t act like you are his immoveable property†so in some occasion they go night out with friends, say, no need to let her partners know , just to keep him mystify so that he can be jealous and to keep your love life alive. I’m wondering if I should make my husband jealous to keep my love life alive.

You know sometimes I couldn’t help wondering of my low life style…. because most of my friends are pretty fashionable and social able personalities but me, I mean a girl like me that my cousin wondered about. It’s always amazing…and just for a record….I don’t have black magic and I don’t use exorcist…

Love your journal.

May I ask why don't you move to live with hubby?

Duan: Thanks ja and yes you may....................

why i don't live with my hubby? it's a visa problem my resident visa was rejected and i am applying for visitor visa now. Hopefully, I'll fly sometimes in coming October or November kaa..

P' sao good luck makkkk...

Khanomkrok: Thanks ja....I wish i always good luck and wish you the same too na ja.......

I've never expected my husband would do to me to please me but when he does, even little thing I would say he is beyond my expectation. I hope you understand what i'm saying

Actually nothing very important than you know who you are and what you are doing. I feel sometimes things around me turned and looks stupid too. But you know what? Maybe you should enjoy it. If you can see through things that some people could not understand it will be a prize for your life visions that normal girls doesn't get it.

ka...but other dont understand girl who have farang bf enough :'( Just feel terrible when they act.

I like that you feel lively again to write some more fun stuff ..keep them coming my dear

I love the description of Don. Priceless.

I love the description of Don. Priceless.

nail ... head !! lol !!!

Khanomkrok: no need to care what others think but you got to care for your happy feeling is enough ja.

Lillydilly: Thanks ja and hope to meet you sometime again soon na ja

55555 @ Bill Rini & Ciaram M : Actually, I heard many girls said "look at his face, look at his face" but whenever i look at his face i don't see anything wrong, it is just normal human face..lol....

55555 @ Bill Rini & Ciaram M : Actually, I heard many girls said "look at his face, look at his face" but whenever i look at his face i don't see anything wrong, it is just normal human face..lol....

it wasn't ur description of Don's face that made me laugh .... but this ..... “virginity taker†!!!

Good article! I like it

ok ka p' soda ...

You have to wonder why your friends are single if they know so much? Jealously, or trying to create it, is just insecurity, and does not build trust. Never go down that road that you think you have to make your husband jealous to see if he loves you. In the end if you do it too much you will be just like your friends, alone.

You are not an insecure person. You know what you have, and you know your mind. Don't doubt yourself like your friends do to themselves. Build on what you have instead of trying to keep it from growing like your friends do. They can't get past trying to figure out why someone does actually care about them to let a relationship grow. They destroy their relationships because they can't understand why someone would like them for themselves, and not for what they can do. They are good examples that lasting relationships are not built on sex alone.

Thank you heaves Koolbreeze, I'm really appreciated your comment...

Duan: Thanks ja and yes you may....................

why i don't live with my hubby? it's a visa problem my resident visa was rejected and i am applying for visitor visa now. Hopefully' date=' I'll fly sometimes in coming October or November kaa.. [/quote']

I see. If the resident visa was rejected, just ask for the reasons and apply again!

Don't give up with the resident visa.