How would you limit your privacy life over the internet? What would you do if someone know you from distant or closely tell you stuffs about someone else in your privacy life did? Would you be scared of that someone? or Would you be thankful for such an information?

Sometimes I cant help but wonder if I let ppl approaching me too easily. Did I say too much about my personal life? Should I stop? What's the limitation? Why would someone think of you as a special person when they never actually meet you or know you in a person?

Sometimes life could be very dramatic, no matter where you are, alone, or even happy with someone. Would you do everything it takes to make your life happily ever after? I wish I could but I'm not living a dream, perhaps once a day, just to make me feel so good about something we never plan or expect.

Do you wanna know how I feel? Yes, i'm so confused, scared, jealous, unstable, lonely, doubtful, wondering, worried.... my mind is else somewhere. Gemini, I wish sometimes I could only have one stable peace of mind.

Tick...tock...tick....tock....tick... tockYes I wonder where everybody's mind is going through right now.

I feel confuse sometime when some people that u never met try to judge you...Hope you have a good day na ka N'May x

Stream of consciousness?

I let ppl talk all they want and I talk all I want to whom I think I will not meet in this life.

I find balance in letting all myself out here and hardly show my face at events. people tend to think that they know u from what they read or hear about u. It's like u see someone on tv, hear gossips or news about them and then u just think u know them, but u don't.

Life is what you make it to be. Live your dream but don't live in a dream.

No, I don't wanna know how you feel now. It'll change the next minute anyway. =P

What's on my mind now? Umm.... bed, my comfy bed.

If you don't tell, they say you are hiding something

If you do tell, they ask you to wash laundry at home

If you keep your privacy high, they say you are unapproachable, arrogantly proud

If you keep your privacy low, they say you are easy, seeking attention, desperately lonely

If you tell the truth, they can't stand the fact, they think you are straightforwardly rude

If you tell a lie, they push you lower and spread rumours that you are (blah blah)

--------------- (my experience) ---------------

There are times I ask my bf why some people say I am nice, friendly, good.. they have never even met me in real. He replied that it's because they think what they see. It's about perception but in fact, I ( We ) are normal people. I too make mistakes, I can feel sad.. i can tell lie.. I do act stupid..I wanna be loved and accepted, etc.

and tonight, I am lonely.....

I think you should be cautious in life when you meet people online or otherwise, first impressions arent always right and I believe trust a question of time, people are the same everywhere and can be false just as easilywhen you meet them as they can online. trust your feelings.

Gemini's think a lot...A super lot! ( I know....I was married to one)

I think your mind can go 1000 KMH !

Try not to worry, although I know it isn't easy.

Although sometimes your thoughts might not be correct, they are still "your thoughts" and you should think them anyways.

Reality always shows itself in the end...never when we want it.......

You never know when someone might repeat what you said to them . . .

yes trust is a risky process . . .

BTW . . . did that green crusty stuff thats been growing on your legs fall off yet!! Just wondering . . .

. . .ooops . . . I wasn't supposed to say anything . . .OMG . . .I'm so sorry . . . I promise . . .I'll make it up to you . . . lol!!!!

I avoid all drama at all cost...so far drama seem to be hidden in the shadows...I can't seem to get away from it.

Really, it's a balance...if you don't risc something, no gain...trust your heart and show an honest face! :-)

...I don't worry that much if ppl know this and that....doesn't change anything in my life :-)

when people talk about other's stuff with me, i listen,but i will do nothing about that, becuase it;s none of my business. and if the info is concern about me, and if it's ture then i will say yes it's ture, but it's not ture then i will say no it's not ture. but believe or not it's up to them. for my privacy,if i like to talk with my friends i will talk,but if i feel i don't want to then i won't.

if some people who know you in real life say that you are nice and special it's because you are nice and special to them. but if someone who even don't know you in real life say that then they want to approach you so they make a beautiful lie.

i don't do everything to make a happy life, i just do what i want to do, and i think that's the most happiness in a life for me.and don't expect too much .

sometimes i have the same feelings as you have: confused,worried...

and now, i am tired and lonely...

Actually...I'm thinking about stalking you May...But just thinking at the moment cos I'm a Gemini....; ) *stalkers wink*

Ahhh the Gemini, I would like to point out that I am CURSED by the gemini. My ex is one, My oldest son is one, my gf is one, and and 4 others from my past were one................AND THEY ARE ALL WHINERS!

I guess I am not the best guy to comment but I believe in being open and honest. There is no point in lying or saying absolutely nothing, because you have to remember lies and people will make assumptions about you if you say nothing

Your journal rings some bells with some of my own experiences. So, I will try to relate what I've learnt, at least what I think I should learn from those experiences at this time. I would say believe another person to be who they are with you, and try to see and understand what is hidden from you, too. Keep your eyes open and try to see what is really there, not just want you want to see. But don't let reality destroy your dream if it isn't necessary. We all want be better people than we really are. Often we can be better people when we have someone who believes in us, encourages us, and gives us motivation. Most people have done things that they feel bad about and don't want anyone to know about. So, it's possible to dig up dirt on most people, but it's a mater of judgement when it's valuable or just destructive.

Next I've really learned we are who we are in our essence and don't change. Likewise, how people honestly feel about each other essential doesn't change. Circumstances change over time, and we can change our habits. So, to know were you stand with someone and what is possible you have to see what that person really feels about you, and really truly accept it. It's a mistake to try to make something from nothing by trying to create or find feelings that really aren't there. I'm sure that many people have done this. How we feel about other people in our life often doesn't follow logic, or can follow some pretty twisted logic.

I do believe there can be honest feelings between people who haven't met in person. Of course, it is much more possible for those feelings to be based on a false idea of who the other person is.

There is no such thing as "happy ever after", but there is "as good and it gets" and when you know that you've found your "as good as it gets" then absolutely don't hold back anything in order to keep it. You can really know it when you've found it, too.

About how much to revel about yourself and when to revel it is really a mater of constant ongoing judgement and balance, and is something I have struggled with so much. Some people are good for each other in this way and help each other keep balance and other people are really not good for each other in this way and the balance is easily lost. We need to be strong and self-confident, and not closed off or distant. I think that this can sometimes be mixed up with affection seeking and affection giving, but it shouldn't be. You need what you need, don't substitute.

So, enough of my ramblings.. :-) Maybe your going to need to charge me for space in your journal! :-)

I just want to finish by saying that often we just have to let things be, there is much that we can't control or even completely understand. Sometimes we just have to let time show the way, and be confident that things will work out for the best.