I never act like a child like this before but since 2 days ago I feel bad and yesterday morning I?m so happy. I look at mirror I think I look younger and cuter. But in the evening when I?m at home I feel very bad, kind of acute down. Never feel like this before and I don?t know what to do, so I talked to my cousin.

Me: feel bad and don?t know what to do. I think I will call that guy who said he will teach how to kiss.

Cousin: think about it, you may regret later of what you do.

Me: C mon, once in a life time. Maybe I feel good if I do and I?m not a girl so I don?t think I?ll regret.

Cousin: No, you don?t do that. U know kiss is half way to sex

Me: I don?t mind if it makes me happy, I can?t fight this feeling, it killing me now.

Cousin: Ok, you go to Mr. Grizzly house and meet lots of people you may feel better.

Then I went to Mr. Grizzly condo have dinner and Mr. Grizzly told me how to plants while he is away for 3 weeks. This is the third time that I have to take care of his plants; the second time was 2 or 3 weeks ago. They left and I went to his condo I saw the fan still working, I guess somebody must broke into the condo and he must hiding somewhere. My thought was if he saw me naked alone he might change his mind to take any assets here but me. So I search everywhere and I realized Mr. Grizzly left and forgot to turn off his fan and more over he forgot to flush his toilet. That is very rude welcome, I thought I would keep that evident until his back but I have to use toilet too, so?.

After dinner I went back and my cousin was surprised why I came home so early.

Me: you know I?m in a moment of desperation

Cousin: I have something to show you

Me: what

Cousin: come here

I walked to look what she has on her laptop ?oh my god she download porn clips from pornhub.com? I thought that she try to make me feel good and supported me not to do thing crazy but seem like she try to drive me to do something.

I never feel down like this, its acute feeling, up and down. Normally 2 weeks before my period I eat a lot of spicy foods and a bit moody. But now it?s strange, this is new thing that I don?t know how to handle. I don?t want to eat and I sleep a lot and sometime kind of obsession. Please help me I?m dying or else I have to end up in bed with a stranger. This is I never ever expected or plan but it can be impulsive moment. Anyone have such this feeling? And what do you do? I really don?t understand myself now. I think I will chain myself this evening incase that feeling visit me.

I need a chaperon now? Any pill? I will take it and any suggestion will do?Thanks..

I AM SUFFERING....

**** !!!!

I have been trying to understand all you females while your on your period all my life.....So I can not help you with your question

Sorry, you are on your own this time.

King

>>he forgot to flush his toilet.

eww! Hope it wasn't #2.. (>_<)

I'd rather not take a pain killer. Good work out is a cure. really!

you're horny and blame PMS ????

go back to G.4 hunny !!!!

Post Menstrual Syndrome!It is common in women Soda. I myself had experienced it before but i just go to the mall and do shopping or watched a movie instead OR READ A BOOK . I kept myself busy so I wont think any naughty things.lol.. But if you are ready to do something naughty well you can do it with the person you love...

I have DYSMENORRHEA. It means I have a painful menstruation every month.Much worst is i fainted sometimes because it is so painful.I need a mefenamic or paracetamol to ease the pain...My Aunt is an OBGYNE doctor she advised me to do exercises one week before my mens and refrain eating oily foods and spicy foods coz it may aggravate the situation...I hope i answered your question...hehehe.You really have a nice journal...

Did you ever consider being a go go dancer?

That way you could get sex AND money!!

The only guys who go to go go bars nowadays are absolutely stupid and like to spend lots of money and would be happy to go with a girl who speaks such passable English.

aaah.........the "Gift poo" aka. surprise party, flushless folly, river pickle, shock and awe. I doubt mr G would of left a gift poo for you, perhaps it was just not flushed properly.

as to yr current misery, best to be patient and let the mood pass, try to make a space in yr heart for the mood to to arise and pass away, don't identify with it. No-one escapes the shitty feelings of life, so ur not alone in feeling down. Try to be thankful of what u have got, a good job, OK health and many friends (even if some of them do leave u gift poo's) Its unlikely casual sex will make u feel better.....that only works for guys.

best to keep coming back to the present moment, thats where serenity lies. Dwelling on the past and anticipating the future is the cause of all sorrow, time is death. You won't find happiness in anything outside yourself, everything is within.

well,Soda.... go shopping with me and chill out you will be ok.... women in the same age may feel the same.and something can talk in person only....

I have no suggestion . . . but that's surely an interesting journal!

This weather is no good for your PMS. I some times cry for no reason or stupid reason when I have PMS. I prefer to be moody and grumpy rather than depression. I hate this feeling too. Hope you feel better soon. You are a nice person and you have many good friends here. Cheer up!!! But if sex with stranger really helps, please pm me

Dont worry, it's probably only menopause or the ' change of life ' as they call it. It's a natural process and happens to all middle-aged women.....Nothing to worry about, i hope this helps :-P

yes..very suffering

You need to release ur stress and hormones somewhere, thats absolutely ok

hmmm Nave got my point!!!!

you r horny and blame PMS?

lol....go go call the guy who said he will teach you how to kiss.