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Something about Mr. Kiwi/

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There was a journal that I posted long ago (the substitute) about Mr. Mole for on and off relationship for over 10 years. And not long ago I?ve met someone unexpectedly, make me thinking back and forth how I learnt my life of gain and lost, cry and laugh. But I?m not regret and do not ashamed of what happened and what I?ve done. I don?t know why I wrote about him again, maybe to compare about men who get into my life or experiences, which may/might mean chemistry. (Sad, there are only 2 men?)

Over 10 years on and off I tried hard and everyway I can to show my feeling to Mr. Mole, how much I care and want to be his best friend. But he doesn?t care me at all, still flirt with other girls no matter I?m with him or not. Once he asked me if I believed that he could be a good father, I said I?m not sure. Then he said ?see? You are not even trusted me?. How could I? Sometime I?ve to close my eyes to hold my tear but it didn?t work. Anyway, I don?t think he is a happy person. When I hurt I transferred how I feel to him even not speaking but my eyes do a good job. He treats me as if I?m his angel but it lack of his sincerity so in the end it hurt me badly and I guess it hurt him as well.

29.05.09 (about Mr. Kiwi)

I took a risk to meet him after he?s back from up country, he was supposed to back on Tues 28.04.09 but he late. He said he would arrive at 7.30 PM but I?m not sure he could make it so I went to have dinner with friends (Mr. Grizzly and his gf and cousin) at Fuji, Emporium. At dinner friends asking about Mr. Kiwi but I don?t know what to tell. I told them our first met I was let him walking ahead. And I observed how he walks, and then I laugh. I thought ?oh this is how he walks?. (a bit hooligan)

After dinner I saw missed call on my mobile, it was him. I called back; he said he is in bkk and told me where he stays. I told him that I?ll see him soon and after hung up I thought ?what am I doing? Going to see him at his room? Don?t u think, he would thought that you are too easy????

I back to my room have shower and pack my dress for next day work, shirt and skirt. I was asking myself again (playing Q&A), ?Am I really going to see him? Oh come on, since you are so crazy and now he is here. Go and learnt from him and when you know he is not different from other men that you experience or you heard of, then go and move on?.

9.30 PM

I was sitting at lobby in a hotel and called him to come down. And when I?m at his room I?m awkward and I don?t know what to do so I asked him if I can take shower. When I?m showering I asking myself that ?then what next? C? mon you are in his room now. This is what you want, so do it?.

I walked out of the shower room and sit down next to him I don?t know what to do. Then I jumped to hug and kiss his cheeks, luckily he didn?t frightening me. He was hold and told me about his up country trip.

Somehow, I?m admiring of my courage??.( funny I never thought of his feeling but myself)

Some friends said ?there are many good men but you never open??, and how do u know??

I used to say that I will not accept or date or have bf who smokes but this is what he is. He doesn?t have to hide his imperfection, and me too, I?m being myself. I feel as if I?m his mirror reflecting his feeling from what I feel. He complete and comfort me and he doesn?t have to wear a 5,000 baht shirt from London. I sensed, we have so much in common and differences. Now, he is gone back home. But at least I have someone to think of?that is enough to me. Anyway, I?m content of everything at this moment.

P.S. thanks to P?Gee, who recommended 2 guys here to me. I?m honored. I didn?t know that you are a match maker..lol? Well, don?t u think it abit late, darling? Only 2? I need more?.not enough...lol?

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ÃÕ¤¹¢ÃÃÃ’ ¡çàŨѴäËé¤èÃáµèäÃè¢ÃŧÃÒÂÅÃàÃÕ´àÂÃà à¾ÃÒÃÇèÒÃÒ¶֧¨Ã˹éÒ´éÒ¹¡çàËÃà àÎéæææ

There was a journal that I posted long ago (the substitute) about Mr. Mole for on and off relationship for over 10 years. And not long ago I?ve met someone unexpectedly, make me thinking back and forth how I learnt my life of gain and lost, cry and laugh. But I?m not regret and do not ashamed of what happened and what I?ve done. I don?t know why I wrote about him again, maybe to compare about men who get into my life or experiences, which may/might mean chemistry. (Sad, there are only 2 men?)

Over 10 years on and off I tried hard and everyway I can to show my feeling to Mr. Mole, how much I care and want to be his best friend. But he doesn?t care me at all, still flirt with other girls no matter I?m with him or not. Once he asked me if I believed that he could be a good father, I said I?m not sure. Then he said ?see? You are not even trusted me?. How could I? Sometime I?ve to close my eyes to hold my tear but it didn?t work. Anyway, I don?t think he is a happy person. When I hurt I transferred how I feel to him even not speaking but my eyes do a good job. He treats me as if I?m his angel but it lack of his sincerity so in the end it hurt me badly and I guess it hurt him as well.

29.05.09 (about Mr. Kiwi)

I took a risk to meet him after he?s back from up country, he was supposed to back on Tues 28.04.09 but he late. He said he would arrive at 7.30 PM but I?m not sure he could make it so I went to have dinner with friends (Mr. Grizzly and his gf and cousin) at Fuji, Emporium. At dinner friends asking about Mr. Kiwi but I don?t know what to tell. I told them our first met I was let him walking ahead. And I observed how he walks, and then I laugh. I thought ?oh this is how he walks?. (a bit hooligan)

After dinner I saw missed call on my mobile, it was him. I called back; he said he is in bkk and told me where he stays. I told him that I?ll see him soon and after hung up I thought ?what am I doing? Going to see him at his room? Don?t u think, he would thought that you are too easy????

I back to my room have shower and pack my dress for next day work, shirt and skirt. I was asking myself again (playing Q&A), ?Am I really going to see him? Oh come on, since you are so crazy and now he is here. Go and learnt from him and when you know he is not different from other men that you experience or you heard of, then go and move on?.

9.30 PM

I was sitting at lobby in a hotel and called him to come down. And when I?m at his room I?m awkward and I don?t know what to do so I asked him if I can take shower. When I?m showering I asking myself that ?then what next? C? mon you are in his room now. This is what you want, so do it?.

I walked out of the shower room and sit down next to him I don?t know what to do. Then I jumped to hug and kiss his cheeks, luckily he didn?t frightening me. He was hold and told me about his up country trip.

Somehow, I?m admiring of my courage??.( funny I never thought of his feeling but myself)

Some friends said ?there are many good men but you never open??, and how do u know??

I used to say that I will not accept or date or have bf who smokes but this is what he is. He doesn?t have to hide his imperfection, and me too, I?m being myself. I feel as if I?m his mirror reflecting his feeling from what I feel. He complete and comfort me and he doesn?t have to wear a 5,000 baht shirt from London. I sensed, we have so much in common and differences. Now, he is gone back home. But at least I have someone to think of?that is enough to me. Anyway, I?m content of everything at this moment.

P.S. thanks to P?Gee, who recommended 2 guys here to me. I?m honored. I didn?t know that you are a match maker..lol? Well, don?t u think it abit late, darling? Only 2? I need more?.not enough...lol?

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Stramash

awww - he has gone home??Does that mean no more Soda and Mr Kiwi tales for now?? Hurry up and come back mr Kiwi!!! We want more of Soda's great journals!!! : )

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faycyber

I have nothing to say,I found something in my life..... love is not enough to be together .... we need something more .... ask yourself what you want what you need.....

I am here being friend and always understand

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Poul

Huh Soda....what happened after the kissing on the hotel room? We want to know ;-)

...and I didn't know there was anything special about how hooligans walk. Bu then again, I never met a hooligan :-)

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imback

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I walked out of the shower room and sit down next to him I don?t know what to do. Then I jumped to hug and kiss his cheeks

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kennyke

P.S. thanks to P?Gee, who recommended 2 guys here to me. I?m honored. I didn?t know that you are a match maker..lol? Well, don?t u think it abit late, darling? Only 2? I need more?.not enough...lol?

wow geee gave up on girls, is he going for the guys this time?

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