" what is it like having a mother"

 i am not playing dumb but i seriously have no clue,

 - does she still kiss you even when you are all grown

or even when you are with friends ?

- does she get all worry about you? when she hasnt heard from you?

or saying i love you until you get bored of hearing it?

how does her hugs and kisses feel like? does it feels like when your friends or others hugs or kisses you??

today i was having dinner with my dad and sister, we were talking about it. he asked us for the 1st time in our life how does we feels about it when it comes to mother's day?  or if we feel empty at all for not having a mother and if we miss her or love her?

i said i kinda do... yes KINDA... trust me i am surprise about my answer but its really how i feel...  my mother passed away when i was 2 and half and my sis was only a year old. i got to know her from stories people told me, i know what she looks like from her pictures we have at home.

i dont remember how does it feels like when she kiss me or hug me? or what does she looks like exactly... the only 2 pictures of her that stuck on my memories was when she falls of the stairs rigth in front of my eyes and when we went to visit her at the hospital before she passed away.

i love her cause she is my mother and i know that she loves me and my sister so much, i am pretty sure of that but i think i love my father more.

he has done a really great job raising me and my sister up. even though there were a bad time between us all but we never feel empty . we  never feel like something is missing in our life at all. i never really feel sad or anything when it comes to mother's day, which i dont know why.  just because my dad brough it up at dinner's and it gots me thinking...  more like curious.

i have to admit i do get jealous at my friends sometimes when their mom call of txt them all asking when will be home and stuff. i heard all the compain from my friends and all i think of was it must be really nice having some one care for you so much and worry about you, she did all that because she loves you so stop bi*ching about it.

trust me, i would tread anything, anything at all...

just to know what does her kiss feels like? or just to have her with me for a day...

or

even just a minute

............................

sorry i am being a lil baby today just tomorrow is 21st anniversary of her death.

Yes my mother died about the same time..but she still guides me, and her kisses and hugs are still the sweetest experience in my life

very good post thanks for sharing the insides of you mind..

my mom gets on my nerves at times - but I love her dearly - I can't imagine what life would be without her - I have a special bond with my mother - but i'm not a so called momma's boy. very,very aweful that you lost your mom at an early age. I would imagine these set aside appreciation days for our parents must be empty without them. I once made a mistake of asking a good female friend of mine what she would do for mothers day. then she told me she lost her mother when she was young too. trust me I felt like real shat. lesson learned never assume..

I gave your post 5 stars 1 because it's so deep. and 2 because those who ' have what they have don't really realize what they have until it's not there or it's completly gone' so those who have a parent or parents that they are close too...next time you se em' give em a great big old juicy hug...

a very big compliment for ur father! it's not easy to raise kids for a man alone. take care!

Agree with GoodKarma, good post.

I just want to say that you have a wonderful father,Kitt3n.VU.

having a mother is like having an emo farther complains a lot, gets upst a lot, and cries more.also picks up after you

As I have gotten older, I have come to appreciate those times when something or someone's actions or words make me stop and think. And - when the quality of that thought brings value to me it is truly a blessing. Thanks Kitt3n.Vu for all that you wrote and all that you didn't write but.... I heard nonetheless.

oh sorry to hear about your mom na .... your great journal is impressive

Wow i was touched by this post. At some point when i was young, i felt that i got a smothered relationship with my mom. Not that i dont love her, but at times she really got into my nerves. But once i am a mother myself, i can understand cleary the love that i am given and the love i give to my child. Her love and care has made me the person i am today.

hey, i'm 53 and my mother still treats me like i was 5. and i LOVE it.

i left home when i was 15 to live in the big world so i haven't been home much to see her, but everytime i am home , its a time i treasure.

im sending ya my love.

I can honestly say this is one of the nicest journals I have ever read, and Id say you have a great Father too :-)

very touched journal...as a mother myself having my little one bow to my feet and say' ˹ÙÃÑ¡áÃè·ÕèÊØ´ã¹âÅ¡' on a mother day is the best gift ever!

your father did a great job .