I keep watching this music again and again since 2 days ago because I?ve never seen its music VDO before. The girl in the music VDO is catching my attention. I mean her eyes that expressing hope & fear and pain is making me thinking back many years ago. Especially, when she looks at that boy with hope and wishes for some magical romance would be left between them. Even a quick glance from him it makes her searching the answer. I have taste this feeling before and I think it?s beautiful and should kept it as a part of life. At least I?m learnt what love is, even it was once in my life time but I think it worthwhile to have such feeling.

I remember when I was working in a big textile company as a telephone operator. The company export sport shirts to Europe & America. And the year end they sell those shirts for staffs 80% discount. I bought 4 shirts for him; there were 2 white shirts and anothers black and grey. I thought it would match to his white skin.

When I show him those shirts he was deny wearing them, telling that ?I?m not wear the shirt, cost 120 Baht, look here my shirt I bought from London 5,000Baht ?. He gesture me to feel the fabric and compared, of course 120 Baht and 5,000 Baht are completely different. I was crushing those shirts in my chest tightly and turn my back to him because I don?t want him seeing my tear falling of my eyes with hurt, shame and guilty. how I could forget that silly thing I?ve done.

Finally I told myself, he doesn?t love you that don?t mean he is a very bad man. No one is perfect anyway. A friend told me that she has never been in love, up until now; I wonder when she will, since she is in her early thirties already. I do hope and wish she'll found someone who can make her feel love.

Don?t know why I?m writing a bout this, probably PMS :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B5xsiKBJGW4

If the shirts are XL i'll have them !

Sorry people I'm not good at use internet because born too long naja :D

You just have too much love Soda.. let it out!!

We all love you too!!

Soda, maybe you try to be writer...or songwriter..your journals getting better day by day...and dont cry, true love will come one day - just believe!

i'd rather buy the 120 baht shirt and have 4,880 baht for beer !!!!!!!

Awww 120baht?? pang mak lol....my sister Thai brought me a 30baht long sleave shirt once, actually she must think my clothes are crappy cos she always come back with something new from the market but that shirt, (i think it was only 25 baht) was one of favorite tops for years until I wore it out...she has good taste:P

Soda you're writing some very soulful journals, khun jai dee.

another great journal Soda!! I would wear the 120 baht shirts too but I am a stingy Scotsman lol

: )

When the guy didn't have diplomacy enough to appreciate your well-meant efforts, he wasn't worth it anyway :-P ...at times, I have been given worthless **** from someone (I don't say the shirts were worthless here), I thank them again and again, just to see the happiness in their eyes when they know their gift have been well appreciated...

Buying gift or present for a man you loved & loved you...he would appreciated anything any time

he will wear that shirt since the day you bougth ,but for a man that you doubt which level you are in his heart is taking risk ofcourse...I hated that feeling too

I've never heard or read such a close telling of that kind of misunderstandings! Thx for sharing it!

Maybe the reason for rejecting the shirts wasn't a lack of love. I don't know your ex, but just like him, mee too I'm very picky with shirts and I only wear the ones I chosed myself. Why? Because I want to put on a classy and comfortable shirt with exactly MY type of fabric and cut and style and color and ironing and so on, see that everything is perfect(!), and then forget about it and concentrate on my duties.

One of my friends (she is Thai) used to annoy her husband intentionally by ironing his shirts the wrong way or not washing his favourite shirts and so on ... and he suffered a lot with that and sometimes got very angry. Finally he agreed to divorce (which was her aim).

She was cruel but clever. Some women tend to regard men as being easygoing with clothes - we are not! ;-)

Love you long time

move your ass silly !!!!

I think the guy who rejected your beautiful offer did not deserve your love. He was a miserable materialistic man with no feelings.

We were always brought up to believe that the value of a gift is in the thought that goes with it - the wishes and feelings of the giver - not the cost of the item.

I have been given inexpensive gifts by people who love me, and expensive gifts by people I hardly know - the things I treasure are given and received with love and care, not a price tag.

To know the feelings of love in your heart is to know life - even if the one you loved is no longer there.

Posted by Milk_Biscuit [ 12 March 2009 | 9:06PM ]

Love you long time

move your ass silly !!!!

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be good to my lovely soda OK?

I agree with almost all comments ...... he'd be happy you bought it for him, it's the intention that counts ..... one should always appreciate a gift, even a small gift

I have to admit I even agree more with Ciaran's comment ;-)

you act in the right way so you cannot have any regret because to love is to give own best.

about him, i really hope he will not understand too late how much you did and do for him, sometime people appreciate the person only when we lose him-her, it s very sad but true.

ps- better to receive a kiss from loved person that a ring of diamant from someone who want "buy" us

I had the same feeling, take it as a value life lesson

He is just too spoilt and impolite. If he needs to mention that his shirt cost 5000 baht then he aint rich but poor off. I always like your stories - keep em coming.