I think I?m honest to myself so that I can be honest to others, the more I love myself and the more I can love others. I have been asked by some? about my state. To be honest I just terminated my relationship in this morning due to many reasons??.. I was fight for him at the first place when friends said your LDR is doomed, or don?t waste your time since it is impossible, it will never work out. But he himself also still keeps me doubt & wondering too, sometimes he keeps silent for a week or two which keep me upset & worrying.

I don?t know how & why people in relationship do to work it out but for me if your partner doesn?t sure of making decision it is also make me uncertain too. It is not anyone fault but let say it is not the right time, right place. let just say i'm poor in relationship.....

There is nothing that I wouldn?t tell him, he knew everything as I know. I have no reason to keep him in the dark because he?s someone that I care most. There was an incident (actually 2) which was not long ago. And I don?t know how to start but I know I have to tell him. If he were angry or want our relationship to end I think I deserved it, and I?m ready to be punish and take responsible?.. After tell him the truth of what was going on I waited for his verdict whether I should be headed or alive by kneeling with my face down to the ground?.

And the latest incident is I've been asked to book a flight to NZ and I did, but since then I have never heard from him I thought I clear to him that its ok if he is not sure I can make anotther time. But he is silent which showing his uncertainty ?.. This is I don?t like the most in man coz you know if you are not make clear decision then I shall make it for you, which mean??.

He is a nice & gentle man, he is my dream but now its time to wake up and face the fact of life.

I still love him & think that he is the one that I wanted to be with but the truth is its impossible, its too far to be true. No matter how I wanted to hold on him, but it likely to be end somehow. Maybe he wants this to happen.

In the past 4- 5 years I have dated some guys and I did like some but as my cousin said I have no power to hold a man long coz I?m just plain and poor in bed?(I can count how many time I have sex in life tho.. lol..) For those who I dated and have relationship ended within 2- 3 months, some even 2-3 weeks, it was not anyone fault but just because my deep instinct telling me to run after seeing insecurity sign. One of a thing is immature & emotional turmoil man always turn me into a terminator..lol?

Nature gives me strong legs and I?m good at running, when did I know I?m good at run? Since I was 5 years old, dad?s friend who wanted to adopt me paid us a visit, when my sis saw him she shouting & yelling at me ?RUN?RUN, SODA RUN?? I was running with bare feet without looking back till I reach my safety zone and her voice still resounding in my ears when ever I?m in a state of insecurity.

Two of my work friends are virgin in their thirstiest and they are still happy, so why should I?

I?m very bad at relationship and concluded I?m happy to be single and alone. And I really appreciated how lucky I am?... Relationship makes me insecure & weak. I don?t want my life to be insecure coz it can affect my mental & physical upset. I don?t want to hurt and be hurt coz what?s the difference? So please stay away from me?. ( I want to breath now )

P.S.

Q&A? anyone? Ok, I take that as no further question then. Thanks & Good day.

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So how long were you in relationship with him?

If the relationship makes you insecure and weak, it's definitely time to get out.

A relationship should only make both of you stronger, better people.

You'll always have your friends ja.

family too!

Cheer up na ka ^_______^

Are you saying all relationships make you insecure and weak?

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Soon on this screen: Terminator ll

Relationships aren't based off how good, or poor you are in bed, they are based off how good, or poor you are at being friends first, and foremost.

People that base the strength of a relationship off how good you are in bed end up with very shallow, and unfulfilling partners.

Building friendship, and understanding in a relationship, build the base for security, and strength that will lead to a relationships that has a serious chance of lasting a lifetime.

Maybe the relationships that made you insecure and weak were the ones that you correctly determined were wrong for you. If the guy you are dating takes anything from a week to two to contact you, then I suspect it is his inability to commit to a relationship and keep that relationship as the most important thing in his life that is weakening the relationship and ultimately ending in your taking the strong line and ending it. If I did not hear from the woman I love after I had sent her a message, I would be wondering what happened - was she OK, was there a problem etc...a couple of weeks and I would definitely be pulling the plug! You will one day find that relationship that makes you stronger, the one that brings happiness and power. It is there somewhere, and eventiually you will find it...until then, live your life happy and content in the knowledge that it will come to you...

I am honest you will meet the right relationship...and I know you really strong cheer up!

koolbreeze says it all and if any guy leaves u just because how poor you are in bed then he's cheap but if you are whining about it/him then you are cheaper.

One can't fully move on if one doesn't see that one can do that and one will have an insecure relationship if one doesn't learn how to trust or oneself can't be trustworthy !!

So sorry to hear, but I know you are admired and appreciated by your TF mates.

Big hug from me. I am sure you will meet Mr. Right one day. Take care ja

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Its understandable you're feeling like nothing is going to work and you want to be on your own....I went through the same thing...Its natural to feel like this...So do what you gotta do whether it be cry,get angry, get whatever it is out of your system and these times will pass.

But yea, completely agree with koolbreez...He said it right.

A LDR is the perfect way to keep a relationship virtual and to not come to close. Good if that's what one want's. But the lack of nearness, responsibility, solving or bearing difficulties in reality avoids exactly that magic thing that strengthens a relationship, creates a certain kind of romance and can feed souls.

Wanna let Christina speak ... "It's not so easy loving me" ...

As long as you are alive & breathing....TF loves you.....xxx

So be aware not to stop breathing. Love is a breakable thing :-)

Love is complicated ...I'll call you soon hun . Big Hugs

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