For the last 2 weeks my thought has changed in the way that I?ve never expected it to be. I used to have nightmare from my last relationship and its haunting for over 10 years. I?ve never trusted anyone and keep reminding myself that I will never ever love and trust anyone ever since.

I met someone whom I think I would use him to kill my boring time. The reason I choose him because he said he is the youngest child, which bring back my childhood memories when I was bully my youngest brother after school for my daily entertainment. And another thing is he looks harmless to me. So I planed to bully him like I did to my brother, tease him then leave him cold, but probably I fall to my trap or his trap, I don?t know.

At first I was frighten and freak out because what has happened is against my policy. After my heart fighting with my head a couple days, then my head give in. and I?m enjoy with feeling and thought, kind of accepted of what is happening.

His rough look makes me think he is a wild and aggressive man (Ë×è¹) but he is not. The more I know him, the more I like him. I don't know why...

I?m standing in my realistic world, I don?t believe in long distant relationship or anything that I can?t see or touch, but ??

Every time when I stare at him I'm laughing and asking at myself that ?when was the fall happen? How? And why? What is the reason? (Couldn?t help) but no answer for those questions. What I can do is reaching my hand to his chest and say ?you are so beautiful?.

I don?t know and don?t care what future will bring, since I?m satisfied of this moment immensely.

I wonder if there is anyone who has such a weird mind like me?thinking, why am I so evil?

Who is created? Me?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m_ojpo5kPLM&feature=related

Just go with it and enjoy the ride. If he's bad to you, we'll set the TF mafia on him.

I am the youngest child too

Indeed, seize the moment!!

Go for it now. The future is promised to no one.

Just do what make you happy. Life is so short. Good luck and enjoy it.

You'll enjoy it more if you bring a vibrator along with you during those intimate moments.

And even then, when he is gone, you can think of him as you buy more batteries at seven.

There are many people with a weird mind like your's Soda... about half the population of the world ;-)

is this Mr kiwi ?? or have i missed an installment recently ??

Go for it ...

I see many perverts on TF lately.

You bully. :-)

nobody's perfect, but you gotta know that perverts are everywhere. the most scary perverts is the one pretend and lie to be a nice ones which is hard to find out... if it's not too late.

Posted by Absentee [ 30 April 2009 | 4:05PM ]

I see many perverts on TF lately. <<<<

well u did go on a trip to hua hin with a bunch of freaks .... what did u expect ???

ppl always choose the best for self. Why worry? Dont hurry up. It's your life.

....For You...

Dream what you want to dream,

go where you want to go,

be what you want to be,

because you have only one life

and one chance to do all the

thing you want to do.

hie hie...Just copy & paste ;B

OMG...a new men !!!!

sounds like the ice is melting, honey

I am the youngest child and the oldest child...

have fun Soda!!!

who is ittt? name and shame, come on haha

Life is made of series of moments..don't think that some thing wrong wit your mind , dare to dreams and hopes

I'm happy for you dear and like to hear the sweet journal more & more

what's wrong with youngest child ?..!!!! cmon you are always have their attention and they are good listener don't you think? say no ? admit it we are adorable

so when do we get to meet mr kiwi....how bout sat nite??

so when do we get to meet mr kiwi....how bout sat nite??

soda in love? maybe soda has become caffeinated.....?

me too.

it's hard to explain but isnt it feels good to fall in love?