TF is my sanctuary, the place to keep me sane
It has been a while since my last time in TF. I'm trying to be a mature woman who handle things in my own way. But the relationship I'm having is driving me insane. And I feel that I have no other way to express my feelings without TF. Sometime I just want to open the window and scream out on the top of my lung. The worst is I start doubting myself if it's me who is the crazy one? Is it right to feel the way I feel? Will normal people feel the same way I do if they were in my shoes? Is the real problem is just simply "Me"??It was my Birthday yesterday and I ended up fighting with my BF whom I've been dating for over a year. He said I'm not appreciate enough of his effort. He came up with the idea that we should invite my parents over to his place for a cake cutting on Sunday. Of which he claimed he is kind enough to asked me to organized, planned, invited and even paid for it. On top of food and drink at the restaurant, I even go and bought the cake myself. When the time comes, my mom asks me what exactly he did other than just 'provide the place for the event'. I gone blank not knowing what to say. The fact strikes me that I ended up being the one doing everything on my own Bday. I mentioned this to him that I was a little disturb by this and he told me that he would pick me up on Monday and we would go to some place nice for my birthday just me and him. On Monday, once I got in the car, I found out nothing has planned. No restaurant has been reserved or anything. We would 'just drive around Thonglor and stop by some place we feel like eating'. Again, I'm wordless and managed to surf online and find some place casual in Thonglor. He saw me a little upset when we got home and ask why. I told him I just feel a little upset. He turned mad and start saying I'm taking him for granted. He supposed to go out with his colleages for dinner but he opt out to go with me. And I should be appreaciated for his effort. Am I really the demanding *****? I was doing everything for him on his birthday. Was it too much to ask him to just treat me the same way I treat him? For the comments :Yes....I guess so. Now I know I was just being a real *****. I should just happy for anything he has done for me. Even though it's just a gesture. I start being sorry for him to have to stick with me. Actually, I've done many things for him. I helped him decorate his place, even paid for a few pieces of the furnitures (which he said I can have it after apartment contract expires in 2 years.) I clean all the dirty dishes for him when I saw they were left in the sink. I pay for half of his internet when I only be there on some weekends. I do laundry for him. Clean the house. And all these even when I don't feel like doing. Because when I stop, he starts to say I'm not being considerate and caring enough.
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